A Colourful Life of Colourful People

Monday, August 21, 2006

The scenery was beautiful, but Kei did not even bother to appreciate it. Feeling lost and helpless, the beautiful scenery was just but an endless blackhole in her eyes. The emptiness of the vast plain that her feet was set upon was akin to the emptiness that was crumbling onto her. The piercing, cold, wind blew onto her skin mercilessly and sent deep shivers down her spine. How much she wished that her mother was around, so she could enjoy the warmth of her mother's hug. She missed the days she would rest in the woman's warmth, listening to the lullabies that would put her into the sweetest dreamlands.

"Mama! Pleeeease!!" The tiny girl tugged the end of the lady's dress as she whined with her tiny voice. She pleaded with her large, round, innocent eyes, looking deeply into the woman's hazel-brown eyes that was filled with love.

"You look extremely lovely in this dress, my lovely Kei," the woman complimented the little girl while braiding her hair meticulously with extreme gentleness and love put into the entire process of doing so. Looking into the mirror, the little girl at the chair realised she shared she same, big, brown curls as the elegant lady behind her. Proud of the fact, she smiled at herself.

"Mama! Where are you going?" The little girl ran against the wind, after the vanishing shadow with all her might, her heart thudding as fast as they could. Panting and pespiring, she did not give up and continued to run in the direction the figure went. She stumbled upon her own tiny feet with the pink sandals that her mother had put on for her and fell onto the grass, that was soft yet not comforting at all. More tear flowed down her pale face as she screamed, hoping for the lady to hear her voice.

Nostalgia filled Kei as she recollected the times she had with her mother. She could not help it but tears just filled her eyes. She missed the times she spent with her mother, yet all she could grasp now was the cold air. All she could hear now was the ringings of her mother's gentle humming in her ears. All she could see in the mirror only her own reflection and no one else. She was alone. Her best friend; her confidante; her elder sister, was only to remain in her memories.

Kei laid on the grass, looking at the blue sky and spotted a cloud the shape of her favourite cartoon character, mickey mouse. Again, the image triggered her thoughts.

"Mama! You will bring me to disneyland, won't you?" the little girl asked with anticipation. The woman just looked at the little girl and nodded back in assurance.

But she never returned after she turned her back towards the little girl and left. Not only did she break her promise, but also the trust the little girl had for her. Nevertheless, love for this lady was a natural instinct. Kei saw herself in the lady, ever since she was the tiny girl.

Kei lived in deceit. She did not trust relationships any longer, because the person she trust most, turned her back, broke her promise and left her. Looking at the clouds drift past, she saw her innocence drifting away too. That was most probably why Kei could hardly ever show her true self.

She was the happiest in her class, the craziest, always smiling, laughing, cracking jokes. Yet only within herself does she know that she was actually living in denial and deception. Laughing was just a way of escaping for her. Nevertheless, she swore to bring joy to others.

"Kei, no matter what, remember to smile and make people around you happy. Only then will you find life meaningful for yourself," the lady told the little girl that was sitting on the short stool, observing her doing the gardening. The little girl nodded obediently and flashed her brightest smile at the lady.

Kei lived to fulfil this promise. She did not want to break her promise, because she still believes that somewhere, there will be the slightest glimmer of hope, or so she attempts to convince herself of it.

I had a real good time @ 6:45 PM
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