A Colourful Life of Colourful People

Sunday, July 16, 2006

please ignore this post.

i have totally no idea why but this sudden crave came up to me: to type and type and rant and rant and rant and rant although i have totally nothing to rant about. So i shall simply rant on and on until i have nothing more to say.

Xiong told me yesterday, when we were at mac that i could start designing the camp poster. I whined, but ultimately, i was willing to do it, because it's for SBMY, for buddhism, for Camp Ehi-passiko, and for polishing my photoshop skills. But a part of me fears that i'll lose more sleep, i can't multi-task that well, afterall. Sometimes i doubt my own ability. Actually a lot of other people can do better, i'm only doing it because i'm free enough. What makes me feel utterly devastated is that the designs always appear fine on the computer screen yet when they are on the noticeboards, they suck to the core and i will just be so disappointed with myself. Nevermind, i believe that so long as the passion is there, be it for designing or for Buddhism, i can do it. I won't mind a double passion to motivate me further anyway.

My mom was browsing through the papers and she saw this article about the shortage of speech therapists in singapore as well as in the general global market. and suddenly i realised i actually forgot that i once aspired to be a speech therapist, because this ambition later widened up to become a social worker. Then i realised the University course would only take a span of 2 years. so i gloated as i wouldn't have to study that much. =p kidding. So i thought through what mama said and wondered if i would be patient enough to help my patients. After all, my tolerance level is hopelessly low and i am in desperate need of what you would call, an anger management course. i get heated up before i cool down after a long long long time, think back and realise things can be as simple as ABC.

Similar to the topic on angle properties, you get burnt out, you crumple the paper up, you get so stressed up you burst out crying [or laughing, in my case] and then you give up. after awhile when u look at it again, *poof!* the answer to the question just surfaces in front of you. We can only think clearly with a calm mind. Just like we can only see through water clearly if it's calm and all the residues have settled to the bottom of the glass.

Oh, and our school council president election is nearing. VOTE FOR SCOOBY DOO -Mr Tan Si Ian- !!! hahaha...i'm just publicizing it because i think scooby doo sounds very funny and cute on him. Not that he's cute. the name is. hahaha. ah well.

haven't gotten sufficient sleep this weekend. so i shall stop my nonsensical rantings and go to sleep. nights!

I had a real good time @ 8:52 PM
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