A Colourful Life of Colourful People

Monday, April 10, 2006

Today had been a bad day. Went to school feeling not so bad. then i told rosary about jk's death and pretended to be happy, when she grieved. but the tears couldn't be held back when drama people were asked to the auditorium. tears. a lot a lot. the negative aura in the auditorium could be sensed. the silence wasn't the normal kind of silence. the silence was so deafening it scared me. so cold, colder than usual, goosebumps on my arms were all appearing. shivers were sent down my spine from time to time, again and again.
After some calming down we attended his wake. saw him for the very last time, with his ipod blasting his beloved music for him. a slight smile worn on his pale face, i believe he left us with happiness and peacefully. hope he's with god now and is happier, because he believes in god. didn't cry in front of him, because i didn't want him to see me sad. so only started crying back in the bus.
A lost of a friend, not so close, but it's definitely a sense of lost. A nice guy who often cracks jokes, makes the entire classroom filled with laughter. i miss him already. then again, nothing is permanent.
Miss wassan walked to me, gave me a tight hug and told me, "You all may be sad, but he's very happy with god right now. feel happy for him."
And so i believe, he'll be happy with god, whom he has great faith in, that even with reincarnation, he will lead a better and happier life, because he passed away peacefully, as stated in the email sent as well as the smile worn on his face.

With these, i'll move on with the happy memories i have with him in drama and in lit class. Wishing him wholeheartedly, may he be well and happy, and i believe he is.

On the other hand, i'd really wanna thank lyn, when i heard of the news on sunday and broke, she was the very first one whom i called for comfort. she provided me with much warmth and support today with her little acts of hugs and holding my hand to calm me down. thanks a lot.

Sheena too, she was equally sad, but she still supported me throughout.

Lastly, ivan, thanks dude for cheering me up, thanks loads, really.

To end on a brighter note,
Had the dental thing today

me:*walks into the mobile whatever u call it*
Dentist: mabel ong right?
me: yea
dentist: (in mandarin) 你不认得我啊？！！
me: *shock, later to realise it was cousin jane*.

so coincidental. XD
who i really needed was you, yet i didn't see you for one entire day.

I had a real good time @ 7:44 PM
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