Sunday, April 30, 2006
Enya--it's in the rain. love this song
Every time
the rain comes down,
close my eyes and listen.
I can hear the lonesome sound
of the sky as it cries.
Listen to the rain
Here it comes again
Hear it in the rain
Feel the touch
of tears that fall
-they won't fall forever
In the way the day will flow
all things come,
all things go.
Listen to the rain
...the rain...
Here it comes again...
...again...
Hear it in the rain
...the rain...
Late at night
I drift away -
I can hear you calling,
and my name
is in the rain,
leaves on trees whispering,
deep blue sea's mysteries.
Even when
this moment ends,
can't let go this feeling.
Everything
will come again
in the sound,
falling down,
of the sky as it cries.
Hear my name in the rain.
I had a real good time @ 9:34 AM
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Spent my entire day in SBM cooking spaghetti and thus missed Ven.Bodhi's talk..ahh...i like her talks so much! then maddie and i went out to get the spaghetti sauce as there was insufficient sauce. On our way back it started to rain. Finally a walk in the rain without having to worry about books and worksheets and what not. And then i started laughing, i just found something so ironic i was laughing at how ironic it was. i'm going mad. =]
Denise gave me an Address & photo book..thanks girl.and so i started pasting my neos inside.while selecting the neos to print i realised something: those are definitely not the best shots, but they are definitely the best memories.so all of them went into the small little book, although the bigger ones like the cards are still left in my wallet, partially because they're too big to fit into my waller and also because they are the best of the memories, so they will be with me where ever i go.at least for now.
Some memories, by today, have become just but a dream, but then again, it was what kept me going in the past. there was this neoprint that said: "we rock", and i started thinking:yea, we rock, literally, our friendship's so freaking unstable it rocks so easily that it has already fallen apart by now.
lols. it's so late. i stepped into an entirely empty house and i can't contact my sis nor my mum. whatever.
I had a real good time @ 12:00 AM
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Friday, April 28, 2006
Oh well..then again because i was too bored from typing geography notes i went to reread all of our entries in the online diary.
Then as i read...i realised most of the entries were made in accordance to a certain event or something that made us go gaga over.but bottomline is, when i read, i could no longer recall what incident that was. i couldn't even remember the incident even when it was a post typed by me, not to mention, the rest of them.
i SHALL NOT THINK TOO MUCH.
go to sleep idiot, stop angsting.
bye!!
I had a real good time @ 9:47 PM
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Today ar..
spent my entire day doodling.
then started to play with the ps gradients with the pic drawn. i like e pic!!
I had a real good time @ 5:10 PM
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green again!
Drawing A cloud on the sky...
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the original one
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peachy sweety...
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green!
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love this too=]
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inverted colours
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FIRE~~
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i like this! it's just so vintage
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Blue one
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Combination of everything
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Thursday, April 27, 2006
went to took neos with ivan just now
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I had a real good time @ 9:05 PM
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006
oh.so shocked.
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I had a real good time @ 7:15 PM
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maddie and i
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hand star
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heart shape
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I had a real good time @ 7:14 PM
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Maddie and i
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audrey and maddie
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these are just zilian pics of maddie, yongting and i while we were outside national stadium..so here's yongting and marble
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I had a real good time @ 7:14 PM
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WOW! i had such a WONDERFUL birthday. i had three papers in a row. nearly died. in fact when my results come back, especially english, i am totally screwed.
My hand ached like hell after the completion of my chinese paper one. in fact i think i wrote a tad bit too much. approximately 1500 words long. i'm a chinese freak. to think some people think i can't speak mandarin. ROTFL.
Some one by the name of ROSARY LIM and CHARMAINE HON bought me like? one big packet of glow in the dark stars. apparently they still have some evil motive to make my birthday my death anniversary as well. kidding.Oh ya, and thanks those people who wished me happy birthday. that excludes jess who kept poking me non stop as her birthday present for me. haha. and maddie gave me a kiss on a paper. quite cute. (though i was thinking of being a mean person somehow by replying her with red lines and circles to point out her grammatical errors. then again, i'm nice. ADMIT IT! ok. stop being so bhb.-.-)
We got siian a book that says "the best book in life starts with S" (apparently that is to somewhat satisfy his ego. =]) and one of the quotes said something along the line of: So we realise there isn't really mush point for the existence of males just that they help carry the piano sometimes. another said: smile, because it confuses people. and so lyn and i went mad with these two quotes in our heads.
so off i went to make my ic. i think it was fun. and i don't know why. and for some reason i'm beginning to dislike the rain when i have my bag with me. cos i can't walk in the rain.
to end this post on a brighter note, it's already wednesday! XD
I had a real good time @ 4:48 PM
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Monday, April 24, 2006
Cut CAKE!! cut cake to EAT!!!
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I had a real good time @ 8:48 PM
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everyone was being crushed. XD
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I had a real good time @ 8:47 PM
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CAKE!! CAKE!!! WOOTS!TIRAMISU!!!
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I had a real good time @ 8:47 PM
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Wish..wish...i look ugly. XD
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I had a real good time @ 8:47 PM
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A slightly further picture...
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I had a real good time @ 8:46 PM
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slut+soon-slutty-jason+usual 5+tiramisu
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I had a real good time @ 8:46 PM
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
One word to describe the day: dramatic
Woke up at nine-thirty to have a hair cut (yea, im insane, so what??)
then had a light lunch and went for the house meeting at pastamania.
No idea why i just didn't feel like talking much so i was burying my head into the national geographic (wonders never cease yea?) i brought along and blasting music into my head.
Then i went out to make a call to confirm the ice cream prices because pastamania had no reception at all.
And as i set my foot into pastamania once more, what i saw was the fellow anandians singing a birthday song for me with a tiramisu cake in front of my face (and coincidentally the dessert i ordered was tiramisu so double tiramisu. YAY!!). so practically the entire pastamania was staring at me. SO SIASWAY!!!
and so usualfive+jason gave me a pair of shoes from Charles and Keith while Coli gave me chocolates. =]
a memorable birthday celebration, making sbmy even more important to me, my life.
end of story. next one.
So there we were, maddie, yongting and i, rushing down to national stadium to give ivan support for his SYF competition. So we were running across the bus depot at kallang to catch bus 11. on the bus i suddenly realised my phone was GONE. scary. then alighted the bus and ran back to the bus depot. yes, i found my phone, crashed by a bus. what makes me wonder is that why is the housing intact except for a few dents, yet the screen inside cracked like hell? science makes me wonder a lot.
so after the competition went off back to sbm. to fold lotuses.
then went home with ivan, 966 went off when we arrived, 853 didn't stop at all, 985 didn't wait for ivan to tie his shoelace. so we had to stone for another fifteen minutes.
tiring but fun day.
to usual five, ananda: thanks a lot people, love u guys
to ivan: hey, u did ur best, don't feel so bad, cheerios!! will be there for ya definitely.ps: the way u eat is very very very very very *infinite* ugly.
*JAW DROP*
guess who i just saw adding me on msn?
MY DAD.
ROTFL!!!
I had a real good time @ 11:31 PM
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Friday, April 21, 2006
Today was a really fun day despite the fact that i am cao4 da1. so it's already dark me+ very dark=very very dark. oh well, sports meet was real fun, being the track judge and slacking, and definitely countless bondings with my countless classmates like ros, sarah, sheena, yiting, jess and many many more.
so there again i was going round collecting the EL shirt money. then i met four juniors at the side gate and i went: 十三块！快点还钱！！
and their reaction made me feel so...CMI.
* -stare blink stare blink- huh?! 你会讲华语的啊？*
do i speak english too much? maybe. it's exactly 0.00am now. =]
our class tee rocks =]
THREETWELVE- Eat out dust; Get distracted.
You rock, i rock we all rock together.
I had a real good time @ 11:57 PM
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
I detest collecting funds.
"PAY UP!! PAY UP!!" "thirteen bucks!!" "Twenty four bucks!!" "No, this one is for april's funds".....
argh...kinda frustrating when some NICE people simply refuse to pay up their funds.
anyway, today's the last day of the film making workshop. kinda sad.i'm gonna miss shaun and ler loads. especially ler. Ler's so nice!! =]
Shaun's very very very cute though he's not as fun, and leon's...eww...cold jokes, but he's okay basically. but ler just rocks!!!
EXAMS ARE SIX DAYS AWAY. SOMEONE HELP ME DESTRESS.
ps: exams start on my birthday.*hint hint* WAHAHA.
drama rocks. im more and more in love with it.
I had a real good time @ 7:55 PM
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
miss wong was playing some song when i started thinking (too much) again. so i scribbled it down.
promise? what's that? will she ever brek her promise to him? Friendship, for heR? she doesn't know. A and B, C and D, E? she isn't sure, but it's definitely not herself. Him? are they best friends like she thought, or just good friends who communicate over the net and SMSes? they never never say hi when they meet. neither was he ever there when she needed him.G. she didn't exactly know him well enough yet, though they feel close and comfortable together. SBM. what's ever gonna happen t her if it's non-existant? A. she changed so much. or was it herself that changed, she wondered.Then again the foolish girl decides upon avoiding them. yea. again. it hurts but she can't do elsewise. save it? forget it. (missing text cos i was unable to read my own handwriting so couldn't copy)
What defined "best friends" exactly? always hanging out together? sharing secrets? always hanging out but never sharing secrets? always sharing secrets but never hanging out? suddenly she just felt so lost. who she onced thought to be a good friend turned out to be a hypocrite. but then again, isn't life just full of hypocrites? sad fact. but she never expected it to be someone so close to her. and then an image came into vision: Throwing the ring into some river or sea like typical drama serials that we always see on tv. "we are the best of friends" what acknowledges that they ARE the best of friends? feelings? then she realised, nothing. nothing but her own feelings. how many times has her own emotions and feelings failed her? countless times. so much so that she never knew how to trust herself, even. then she hopes. and she loses hope. then she braces herself up. then she embarks on the entire journey once more. and then she realised that she was standing on the edge of the cliff. jump or turn back. so she carrys herself back to square 1. then she recuperatres. and she tries to climb it once more. and the next moment she's slipped off the edge of the cliff she thought wouldn't be there any longer. that's when she breaks. totally. and she starts wondering, at this moment, why was she penning her thoughts down in the midst of her chinese lesson while her chinese teacher is going cuckoo playing some song by wang fei. then it reminded her of "diary of a mad housewife".
She'd better get back to class. her mind. she oughtta stop writing and then the teacher starts spouting nonsense once more. and so she continues thinking and thinking, and she realised she has no more to think. too tired to. good grief before she never stops.
I had a real good time @ 9:27 PM
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Monday, April 17, 2006
Before school ended, sheena, miss j and i had a chat about improving el. changing the environment. partially to help us get over our friend and move on, secondly to make the environment more condusive.we talked about el fundings, how messy and chaotic the entire admin of el actually became, for one moment i hope to bring el to greater heights when the sec fours leave el into my batch's hands, then i started to wonder, will i have the leadership quality to really lead them well? i hope so.but i worry, what if i don't? what's gonna happen? i don't want to see el disbanded. neither do i want to see it not disbanded but so seperated, like sand all over the place. can i do it?
It was a journey which brought me into a world of thoughts. At first it was a normal day like any day, staying back in school to mug, to slack, for cca, for competition preparation, then suddenly i found myself pretty lost, because i realised i had nothing much to do.
i just couldn't relate to them any longer, then again, let go. so i let that pass.
normally on a monday i would be waiting for maddie with dawn and canida to go home together. Then the next moment i found myself strolling towards the sidegate instead of the canteen as the others made their way there.
Thoughts came, non-stop and i kept thinking and thinking and thinking. life. what was it to me? what do i actually look forward to in life? weekly sharing sessions in sbm? other than that? i don't know. i really don't know. and then i found my life just so empty.
Promises. what are they? "friends forever"; "i'll never leave you", how many people does it take for us to keep this promise, and so i realised, the promise made was tough. really tough. Lyn made sense, it ought to be "i'll never leave you for as long as i can". so what if i don't leave you when i can no longer connect with you?
promises. are they kept for the point of keeping them, or kept true from the heart? i have no idea. promises of friendship have been broken many many times in this life of mine.
"hey! let's get this ring together!"
"hey! wanna get this? we can have them as a group!"
Does the ring really help? i tried. i tried wearing it. i tried wearing it and think that it would save a friendship. or so i was fantasizing. nothing helped. i could no longer understand the other party anymore. apparently it was already a symbolism when the string holding on to the ring broke. i should have realised earlier. so once again, i try to let go.
then i realised i've been living in a world of hypocrites.or maybe it was just that i didn't realise it, i was too attached to even notice. and when i do i realised everything's over.when i realised i too began to dislike the other party, and the reason for dislike was because i no longer know her, i brought myself to dislike her, to heal my wound.
then i started wondering, spiritual friends. what are they? who are they? where are they? alvin, yongting, shixiong, bertina, fiona, coli, madeline, i started wondering if they are my spiritual friends and i sincerely hoped so. i started praying we wouldn't break.
then i tried convincing myself that i was thinking too much, far too much, and another side of me popped up to say it's normal for a teenager like me to start angsting at times. so i continued.
who was my best friend? leon? lyn? maddie? yongting? bertina? was i the only one to walk with them for their life? maybe for one, but then again, that wouldn't exactly mean i'm his/her best friend.and it's only MAYBE. then which one of them actually treated me as a good/best friend? and then i found myself even more lost.
thinking....
thinking....
thinking....
i fell into a deep deep sleep on the train.
just too much thinking for the day, and i don't know why. too much stuff happening around me i suppose. alvin, hang tough, ananda's gonna be there for u.
I had a real good time @ 4:43 PM
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Sunday, April 16, 2006
Lotus number 202 is out!! haha..
fold
fold
fold
fold
fold
fold
seriously, i think having a sibling 15yrs apart is so cool. don't worry, nth will go wrong. cheerios. i'll be there for ya if anything happens. but then again, i will never be there cos nth will happen.
sometimes people ask me why i choose to stay in school, wait for my friends and mug at the same time than to go home.
sometimes people ask me why prefer sbm to home.
sometimes i ask myself why, and sometimes i explain it to close friends of mine. i don't like the way it is. quarrels, shouts across the hall, unhappiness, scoldings, crude words, anger, temper, hatred...
and then i wonder, i used to be able to get over it, why is it that it's getting back to me once more? i used to be able to just ignore these..and then emotions overwhelm me again. i dislike home. where's the warmth? where's the love? the care and concern may be expressed in a different manner. but i just can't stand the quarrels. where's the compromisation that ought to be around in a family? gone. gone. gone.
what's a home? i don't know.
I had a real good time @ 7:32 PM
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Saturday, April 15, 2006
life hasn't exactly been smooth-sailing and emotions have been overwhelming far far far too much. then again, there are definitely happy moments of my life.
Friday- indeed a busy day, down to sbm to mug, then to cck for OM training. im traumatised by the omers. they scream and they shout and they fool around and they play and they're just like monster kids!! OUT oF CONTROL!!!later down to orchard to meet the rest of the SBMYians. for some fun. hey!! it's a public holiday!!Truth or dare on orchard was definitely fun and exciting, when i don't get the dare. wahaha.
Today-thanks for the support people, maddie, alvin, yongting. yeps, love you guys loads.
I had a real good time @ 9:27 PM
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Thursday, April 13, 2006
what's your issue? what's with having a diary to pen down some lil thoughts of mine? what's with having some secret i don't wish for others to know? what's with leaving my diary at home?
why is it that i can't even leave my diary at home? why can't you just leave me with some privacy? why do you always love to intrude my privacy? don't i have my own rights? why must you do so? how i wish i can be like others, leaving my diary at home without having to fear or worry. i just thought life would be better and happier. now you're crashing all these. all in one.
how i wish you aren't my sis.
I had a real good time @ 10:25 PM
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006
school. bad bad day.
I know it's important to study. but please respect the way i prefer to study. i am not like you. i am not yearning for 10 perfect A1s. neither do i want to do too badly. i have my own way of studying. if you think i'm slacking too much, too bad. quit trying to make me study when it's not the way i study. stop this. i hate this.
I had a real good time @ 8:32 PM
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Monday, April 10, 2006
Today had been a bad day. Went to school feeling not so bad. then i told rosary about jk's death and pretended to be happy, when she grieved. but the tears couldn't be held back when drama people were asked to the auditorium. tears. a lot a lot. the negative aura in the auditorium could be sensed. the silence wasn't the normal kind of silence. the silence was so deafening it scared me. so cold, colder than usual, goosebumps on my arms were all appearing. shivers were sent down my spine from time to time, again and again.
After some calming down we attended his wake. saw him for the very last time, with his ipod blasting his beloved music for him. a slight smile worn on his pale face, i believe he left us with happiness and peacefully. hope he's with god now and is happier, because he believes in god. didn't cry in front of him, because i didn't want him to see me sad. so only started crying back in the bus.
A lost of a friend, not so close, but it's definitely a sense of lost. A nice guy who often cracks jokes, makes the entire classroom filled with laughter. i miss him already. then again, nothing is permanent.
Miss wassan walked to me, gave me a tight hug and told me, "You all may be sad, but he's very happy with god right now. feel happy for him."
And so i believe, he'll be happy with god, whom he has great faith in, that even with reincarnation, he will lead a better and happier life, because he passed away peacefully, as stated in the email sent as well as the smile worn on his face.
With these, i'll move on with the happy memories i have with him in drama and in lit class. Wishing him wholeheartedly, may he be well and happy, and i believe he is.
On the other hand, i'd really wanna thank lyn, when i heard of the news on sunday and broke, she was the very first one whom i called for comfort. she provided me with much warmth and support today with her little acts of hugs and holding my hand to calm me down. thanks a lot.
Sheena too, she was equally sad, but she still supported me throughout.
Lastly, ivan, thanks dude for cheering me up, thanks loads, really.
To end on a brighter note,
Had the dental thing today
me:*walks into the mobile whatever u call it*
Dentist: mabel ong right?
me: yea
dentist: (in mandarin) 你不认得我啊？！！
me: *shock, later to realise it was cousin jane*.
so coincidental. XD
who i really needed was you, yet i didn't see you for one entire day.
I had a real good time @ 7:44 PM
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Sunday, April 09, 2006
as i was having fun with my fellow SBMYians yesterday night,
as i was joking and playing along with friends like ivan, yongting, maddie, meiyi,
as i was laughing, enjoying myself,
my fellow schoolmate; drama mate passed on.
he was always the joker in class, always so happy, cracking jokes to make us laugh.
when i was informed of this, i was totally in shock and started crying...and i couldn't stop.
im not really close to jk, not a good friend of his, yet it's still really saddening for him to leave us.
May he be well and happy....
I had a real good time @ 8:14 PM
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Saturday, April 08, 2006
today. busy day.
some disgusting idiot woke me up at 8+ but i ignored the sms and only replied at 930.
then went to gpet contacts, collecting it on (suposedly wed, but not free) friday, then to meet coli to get some stuff and later to meet maddie for mugging and off to sbmy.
during the meditation attempted not to slouch and ended up with a muscle pain along my spine now.
some stink bomb sat in front of and later beside me, and even used my shoulder to sleep. nearly choked to death. and his singing was...OH! SOOOOO WONDERFUL!!!
veryveryvery shag and tired. yongting coming to my house for some mugging and photoshopping help tomorrow.
cations and anions are killing me, as in, real, bang bang shoot me in the head and die kinda kill. XD
Sorry, Alvin, for being unable to commit myself to Vesak@orchard.
I had a real good time @ 10:02 PM
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Thursday, April 06, 2006
Today. well. chem was. i don't know. fun. physics was. fun. climbing up stairs with lyn was. fun. we laughed all the way from the 2nd floor till the class and our stomach hurt like hell. long time since i've had such a gd laugh.
though it's all on the surface...but it's at least some cheering up which i tried to keep it as long as possible.
and i TOTALLY screwed my ss test up...AHHHH!!!
el-oh man! i love the sec ones! they all pay up their funds on time!!
and i've decided--the name on my el jersey shall be "Marble"
today. saw miss koh and started laughing. starting to get miss koh phobic
mr tan cut my queue!!
and then i can't find the book " how to overcome difficulties in your life" mom saw it ytd on the desk and now it's POOF! gone!!! ahhh!!!
ok. im mad today.
I had a real good time @ 8:44 PM
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
OMers!! you guys did really great today!! they passed the 100 mark point!! yay!!
now i know that ghost stories make you guys really spontaneous. lurve you guys.
been pretty quiet for the first half of the day. weird of me. but om brightened up my day. XD
I had a real good time @ 8:24 PM
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
OM training was much livier today although today was what we call, very "happening". Art students are doing much more better than last week and their higher marks are 90 although i think they have the potential to do better. OMers, Jiayou!
People surrounding me like rosary, JK, yongjin, charr charr are going bonkers, rather, they went bonkers. ros started laughing and laughing for i have no idea what reason.
during recess ros was like: the water cooler has been hounded by three guys. then i looked front and said: keith, haoguang and a very very short guy. then the next moment the very very short guy turned and it turned out to be jh. whoops.
and then rosary, being the NICE person she is, tried to pull me to 3o8 for some stupid reason and apparently i refused to. let's wait until july 16 to see. =D
and then lyn TOTALLY freaked me out with her poking. it was so...EWWWWW
I had a real good time @ 6:28 PM
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Monday, April 03, 2006
was bickering with ros and charr charr about STARs throughout the entire day. set me on a thinking journey yet it was fun. i don't know why. it was just fun bickering with them. hehes. i think ros must be prepared to gimme a treat cos it's impossible for the stars to happen. wahaha.
apparently some other people heard us shouting and what not but were confused by stars so i suppose they were seeing stars all over their head. hahax..i was very high today. went to school banging my head with the JLC book saying im feeling very guilty while dawn goes zhiyang is very cute. so in the end it came out like this: "I feel very guilty zhiyang is very cute" => "i feel very guilty that zhiyang is very cute" lols. and right smack in the morning i spilled coffee on my skirt. so i had a blue, brown and white nanhua skirt.
got an orange water bottle today. =]
meanwhile saw jianwei and he was like staring at me as if i was some alien. psychopath yea, alien?no.
I had a real good time @ 5:40 PM
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Sunday, April 02, 2006
in a much better mood today. finally. did chemistry TYS and kinda got bored out. missed the renci visit. but at least i managed to get work done. i need coffee. oh, i borrowed this book "diary of a mad housewife" yesterday. highly amusing. im madly in love with the song "simple and clean" and even more when i found it.
hey, feeling a lot better after ironing stuff out with you yesterday night, although im still feeling slightly hurt. i cried to sleep again, but this time it was tears of joy. i'll be back to your side, walking with you in a really short while.wait for me while i catch up.
I had a real good time @ 12:58 PM
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Saturday, April 01, 2006
sorry for making you feel alone..i'll return, one day. i will.
I had a real good time @ 9:59 PM
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happy that i've got some work done at lyn's place. XD
bought some snacks for omers on tuesday.
yongting: i don't exactly know what to do if you choose to avoid me and i have no idea why are you avoiding me even when i'm taking the initiatives now.
him: sorry, im not expecting you to change the way you are or anything, please give me time to accept it, i want you to know our friendship's not over, please don't lose faith, and please give me some time. it was just a case that i couldnt stand egoistic people, especially people who are supposed to be my good friends. it bugged me so much i cried to sleep, i even dreamt of you, the moments of joy last year. i don't want the friendship with you to break, neither do i want to see you and pretend like i don't know you. that really hurts. and i never never want to drag your contact name from the first one to the normal friends one. even when you were blocked you've always remained as one of the few whose contacts are on the first group in my entire contact list. let time heal the wound and we can become good friends (if you've ever considered me as one) again bahs.
I had a real good time @ 7:52 PM
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