A Colourful Life of Colourful People

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Calm yet hurt
Rational yet confused
Clear yet lost
"a mouth may not have a mind of its own"-eden's nickname said so
maybe she was just speaking in a spate of anger
maybe she is just subconsciously doing all these
maybe she really feels neglected
maybe it's my fault because what i've done causes her to think this way
maybe it's my fault i've been putting to much attention on the others
maybe it's my fault i haven't been taking the initiative to understand her more after the tiff
but im really really tired of taking the initiatives...not that it's all the time with her, but with the other too...
maybe it's my fault i do not how to prioritise
maybe it's my fault i chose to heed the advice, which led to this big mess i have to clean up
maybe it's my fault i took what she said so seriously
maybe it's my fault i didn't assure that this friendship is stable before going into anything
maybe it's my fault i am being so pessimistic
maybe it's my fault i am being too controlled by my emotions
you made me feel so hopeless about this friendship....maybe it's simply all wrong from the start..but considering this broken friendship, it made me cry to sleep last night..

I had a real good time @ 5:13 PM
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