A Colourful Life of Colourful People

Sunday, December 11, 2005

i am still currently trying to convince myself that i am dreaming, or in some trance, hallucinating or deluding..or something along the line...all these started at 11.30pm on friday, while i was happily catching up on "love story @ harvard" in front of the television.
*Phone rings in the stupid "bouganville" tune in nokia handphones*
*reads: alvin sbmy*
*picks up phone*
*Hello, alvin ar...*
[He asked me to call him again with my house phone. and so i did.]
Alvin: Good evening.
Marble: *i forgot what i said, but i should be "uhuh"*
Alvin: eh sorry leh last time i made a mistake and told honglee you wanted to be camper....
Marble: *thinking it was only because of helping out with the food...* Uhuhh...
Alvin: But this time it's good news for you la
Marble: Uhhuuuuhh....
Alvin: You're a GL......
Marble: huh？！！有没有搞错?!
Alvin: 没有，没有搞错，是以前搞错现在搞对..
......And marble stoned for the next ten minutes before proceeding to sms yongting, and she called me. my cold hands trembling,i even asked her if i was dreaming. at the same time i attempted pinching myself and it hurt. then i proceeded to asking bryan if i was dreaming, and he answered he wouldn't be sleep walking--smsing. and i forgot who but someone did tell me to "breathe in breathe out (X4)"...So that night i had no sleep. very very scared.
And then on saturday, the presentation. my mind blanked out when i stood up. and i couldn't talk properly. oh well. it's bad bad bad for a drama club person. on the very same day, i got to know which GL i am working with. and more stress. really worried that i can't click with him. oh well. yes, im a worrywart. and on the same day i reached home at 12.30 am. [how nice is that]...

today. we packed and prepared everything. i felt so contented, although i had such a tiring day. i don't know why, having seen that all's prepared, i was just very happy. on this very same day, more stress came. oh yes, and leon and bryan got bored out they left very very early. and on the train i got booed by leon yeow. nearly let out a yelp....

and back to the same point, my worries come. what if i can't get high? what if i become normal and become real quiet? what if i can't click with victor teo? what if i screw everything out? what if i let my bossiness take over me? what if im not a good gl? what if the campers don't like me? what if i meet some really really quiet campers? what if i do get my friends and can't make them enthu? and all these lead back to one word: STRESS!

and there goes my throat turning hoarse and all......
somehow cpare me some honey lemon?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STRESSSS~!!!!!

I had a real good time @ 10:54 PM
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