A Colourful Life of Colourful People

Saturday, October 22, 2005

it's a long weekend, and yesterday night i stayed up till 2am STONING, no, not mapling, stoning in front of the computer. Woke up at 1.15 pm, actually wanted to sleep more but Evelyn's phone call woke me up. thank goodness i did not promise coli to go bishan with her for i would still be sleeping even when it's time to meet her. =] Normally at this time i woul dbe sitting in SBMY meditating, but today's sharing session starts at 7pm, and i gotta admit i stoned when i received fiona's sms. "WHAT?!!! 7pm?? so late?!!" So yesterday i chatted quite a lot with leungyan about faculties and courses. i still can't wait for Macbeth. Nonono, i am NOT a meloncase for liking and wanting to take lit, get this straight. I've read huai4 xiao3 zi and i desperately need to trod over to ~~the pathetic~~ sembawang library for novels, one english one chinese. I feel like watching "The Snow Queen", a play in accordance to the story written by hans christian anderson [however his name is supposed to be spelled]. I am currently waiting for the arrival of 5pm so i can start preparing and go to SBMY for the Dhamma talk tonight. Unfortunately dawn still hasn't got "Wind" because she always have to go off before the file transfer completes, of course, her slow connection speed has to be blamed too.=P
think of it, one year has simply flown by, so quickly, it's like harry potter with a flick of his wand and a year has passed. Yes, i aint a fan of harry potter but for some reason i just thought of it. i'd rather there be no holidays, for holidays shall mean it will be the last one week i will be together with my good friends, no, i aint implying that i will not keep in contact with them but it's missing them, it's loneliness...the friendship among the usual four of us was only built up less than half a year ago and we have to leave. Well hopefully a couple of us get into the same class. i hate departing with my friends. That's why i'd always believed building friendships out of school is always better than in school, it's an unlikely chance we'll get seperated by classes and stuff like that.
I am having a craving to play cello/bass once more, it's been more than a year since i'd flipped through my scores, since i'd even touched the instrument. Not that i regret choosing Drama over CO, i just miss the times i can immerse myself in the playing of instruments every friday and saturday in SPS. it's time i go over to sps and visit my CO instructors, although mr [k] lee is no longer there.
i have no idea why my blog post today is so long, but suddenly i am having overwhelming thoughts, many many "if onlys" are in my mind right now. if only i had gone back to SPS during teachers' day instead of making the lantern...
if only...

"Hey, i really don't wish for you to go overseas for university after your O's, you're a really good friend to me, someone whom i can confide in. Of course i wouldn't stop you if you really make the decision to do so, but i don't wish for you to. really. But i know this is your dream, and i'll wish you all the best."

I had a real good time @ 4:33 PM
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