Sunday, July 31, 2005

i'd like to share a poem that shixiong shared with us this morning..
"When you mother has grown older,
When her dear, faithful eyes
no longer see life as they once did
When her feet, grown tired,
No longer want to carry her as she walks -

Then lend her your arm in support,
Escort her with happy pleasure.
The hour will come when, weeping, you
Must accompany her on her final walk.

And if she asks you something,
Then give her an answer.
And if she asks again, then speak!
And if she asks yet again, respond to her,
Not impatiently, but with gentle calm.

And if she cannot understand you properly
Explain all to her happily.
The hour will come, the bitter hour,
When her mouth asks for nothing more.

Can you actually believe who wrote this?
--He likes to wear green..
--Has a moustache
--Dead...
and i forgot the others, but he is none other than ADOLF HITLER, but upon reading the poem, we described him as "patient", "fillial" and others...and he actually turned out to be the man who distorted the sign that represents peace and love into the swastika, who killed the thousands and millions jews...so shocking to hear that this guy wrote such a poem..and it made me reflect about my rudeness to my parents...wahhhhhhhhhh
and we talked about the story about the Anguilimala and focused a little on seeing people from their good perspective, not always only picking on their faults, etc etc..
Yesterday had a nice conversation with Mr lee, Mr Victor lee, not lee han bao la! as well as jh as figuring some code-encryption thingy.at sbmy, denise turned out *heng heng* and yongting did too! but in the end denise and i pang seh yongting for we had to leave for our respective tuitions. however, when i left, there was only about 15to 20 people at SBMY...awww..kind of tired, slept at 2 yesterday..just now after sbmy while waiting for a bus, a little kid and his father were waiting for a bus to Toapayoh, and they missed the bus. The bus comes every ten or fifteen minutes that he became so frustrated he started crying...and i think i woke cecelia up with the phoen call..wahahah...just talked to kuolyn on the phone, and it will continue later, she's obsessed with Naruto la...i seriously think my grades are deproving...need to mug more. yepps. i walked into 7-11 yearning for a nice cup of slurpee, but the cup ran out and the shuai but sissy guy asked me to use the big gulp cup instead...=.=told kuolyn and she whimpered..such a waste...awwww..an di am left with one pathetic sms for today, and kuolyn says i can't survive. i'll prove to you i can! just came back from tuition and it was amusing, about how mr hogan actually baked a lizard along with his bread and exploding a lizard in the microwave unintentionally. ewww..as disgusting as him. while learning, loads of jokes were cracked. particularly about soy bean milk and how faustin hogen needs green tea to complete the process. Shermaine obviously doesn't know the meaning of the two and i had to tell her as she bursts out in laughter..i have this feeling i have to edit a 5k word report for somebody...
*WHERE'S THE WALL* seriously i love kuolyn. and i don't understand why the hell, last year did i dislike her so much..ya la..she's changed...into one whom i love! *sniggers* i am crapping..
shall stop here...very tired...falling asleep...
I had a real good time @ 2:11 PM
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Saturday, July 30, 2005

Happy Birthday Amanda!
As usual, i am not on very close relationship with Amanda, but happy birthday girl! wish you all the best!
Well, today is spent doing homework, stoning, watching Meteor garden II and surfing the net. Yesterday night was quite fun- chatting with pals like tingting,dawn,kuolyn and cecelia, although i was more of listening to him talking about how much i need a doctor. a doctor can't solve those problems! nevertheless, thank you cecelia, you sure are one sensitive person who can *detect* my mood the moment i reply. and zeming, yep, i am perfectly fine, i am just lazy to change my nickname
ps people: you can never judge my mood from the nickname, because they are simply phrases from shows, books, etc. the answer lies within the picture..
friends are really really important, and my definition of "friends" are true friends, those that do not betray their friends, toy with their friendship or lie to their friends for their own benefits. these friends are really rare, but i am glad to have found quite a number of them. it's tough to find a friend whom you can confide in, who can understand you and let you feel comforted when you're feeling bad. yet i've found a some too. i find myself really fortunate to have such great spiritual friends whom i can approach when i face problems. they are none other than
my pals-not just the few whom i mentioned earlier, but also jinkee and minying, coli, leon sometimes, because he seems to know everything=.= and mr chng whom i always approach for advices
speaking of friends, would like to thank cecelia. always listening to me whine, complain, let me vent my frustrations on and attempt to cheer me up. not that i don't allow him to whine and complain on me la...but thanks sia...like yesterday..so cheesy..
another important aspect of our lives, i think, is spiritual guidance as i mentioned in earlier posts. i am fortunate to have Buddhism as my spiritual guide, as well as the SBMY seniors whom i approach when i face confusion and dilemma. many gain guidance from their religion, but some feel that in between themselves and religion, is an invisible wall that blocks out the faith to any religion.however, these people,should gain guidance from all. People often feel lost without a guide, they do not know where they are exactly heading, because no one has ever urged them to think and reflect about their objectives of life. Well, hope those whom, until now, still feels lost, find their guide...
and SOMEBODY, you KNOW i am referring to YOU because i crapped so much about it that day...YOU should KNOW who YOU are. LOL. kidding. but this post is for all of course...
thank you ting ting for the compliment that i am half-idiotic due to the NICE influence of SOMEBODY. *sarcasm radar from diamond explodes into dust and vaopourises* blah. and somebody will get flooded with SMSes on monday, you said i not happy SMS you de, so i shall keep everything from the past few days and explode on you on monday, because my SMS not enuf..hehex..KIDDING la...
tomorrow's sbmy session will be spent with loneliness, i will leave before those from PKS arrive, and also, Evelyn not going, yongting not going, denise not going..awwww....i shall sit there and stone.
sonia's nickname rings a bell--being nice with a motive isn't nice at all.
I had a real good time @ 5:24 PM
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Friday, July 29, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAIYI!
to kaiyi: i may not know you very well, but all the best for your career and life! may you be well and happy!
i stepped out of the school compound reaching the side gate only to realise i did not bring my phrasal verbs book home. argh forget it. im too tired to walk all the way back that long long long way to grab a book. i am so blur la. still telling sky today is wednesday. Cannot make it. Common test is nearing which means lack of sleep, pia`ing and some gathering at the library is nearing. wahh today...super tiring and busy.first was waiting for mr chow to help to get the cake in, then saw jinhong so jinkee and i shouted "Cecelia" from above and he actually turned to look...hahax.. first was maths which i didn't find boring at all, later Chinese. the chinese lesson was spent highlighting and writing. recess chionged then heng heng saw mr chow and got him to help me grab the cake from the fridge. then went down to canteen with 112. haha... mr chng looked funny covered with crazy ribbons and having that shocked look when i told him i flunked all three JCs...so funny...as usual, the brownie is super compact and mr chng had a hard time cutting, worrying that the plastic knife might break given the rate it was bending--dangerously.he was like" wahh...zhe4 yang4 ying4! zhe3 me4 cake lai2 de4?!hen3 pa4 na4 ge4 dao1 duan4 diao4 lei!"[i still wonder how he manages to be an english teacher] luckily it didn't..well so proceeded to cutting the cake like siao, and had to *smuggle* five slices for the girls who was chiong`ing their art.
next was of course, art which i was pretty sian diao with..designing the stupid lanterns. geography just sat and stoned. well miss tan's farewell tingting and i had a great time whispering "sweet nothings" and seeing the two gross guys feeding each other. ting and i spent a great time obsering others as well and then laughing. such a great session. we had pizza too! back to class for ACC, draw what stupid flower lor..anyhow anyhow la..then is like.there's some goodness not to be so muscular if nto you'll be unable to do calligraphy in thin strokes. (jh you can console yourself la hor)...but it's surprising this guy's calligraphy is quite nice.then accidentally stained jh's shirt...sorry...=.=
drama club we ordered pizza (again) and KFC. so renu and i sat stoning away, doing nothing, listening to music. haix...our school is so short of english teachers.5 gone in two months... too bad lor *shruggs*
i miss everyone. then when drama ended i chiong to class without dawn's bag, and realised choir just dismissed so ran down to find dawn and found her! ^^ so we walked to central..and i shall let you guys solve on riddle which is so easy but one stupid guy couldn't solve and thought the others could not...apparenly dawn and i did..
" What is the end of time and the beginning of eternity?"
ans: ee
Lame right? i so look forward to this guy in a cap and with layered and styled hair sia...(no sarcasm hor)
To mr chng: All da best for your teaching career...other stuff all written in the paper..
Miss Tan: I'd had a great time with you as an english teacher as well as a literature, and i wish you all the best for your studies.
Sec 4s: actually i ain't that close to you guys except for lendl i guess, so jiayou grow taller. also, you MUST remember to tell me her reaction when you tell her, and i definitely will grow taller than you kk? wheee~ai dong gua! lalala...
it's such a long post...so happy i can go maths trail. hope i'll enjoy it and i hope i get zero blisters...looking forward to tomorrow-homework day and sunday--sbmy, half.
i am NOT done with my post yet. i am so longwinded, but i read wencai's blog and found it super meaningful--
Truly, if a person could regard the mistakes of others as just another encounter with an imperfect human being we all are, he will be a very happy and refined person worthy of cheerful and lasting companionship. Such a character will be most attractive for he will be able to understand why a person behave or conduct themselves in a certain way, thus able to accept the flaws in each individual person. That penetrating insight to human nature.

One of which is the ability to be aware that all human beings have something called pride deeply rooted within the human consciousness. They will always be on the path to impress others in one way or another. The more deprived a person is of attention and recognition, the greater the urge to display their ability, sometimes at the expense of other people's pride.

blah. it struck me so hard and strongly reminded me of the current situation i am stuck in right now--to be or not to be. i admit i cannot be so magnanimous. i tend to see faults in people although i am fully aware that i ain't perfect either. maybe we should forgive her. but she's done so much so much my patience is running out. but this post by wencai made me think..think whether it is my fault that i or rather, we are only finding her faults and not looking at her positive points. this is the third time i am trying and to tell the truth, i am scared-scared that this friendship will fail me once again. what led me in this dilema is that if we were to see her good side, will this be true, or is it like another act, another drama, another play, and me as an audience who simply takes everything in. on the other hand, after this whole incident, we are already biased against her and it will be tough to look at her in a totally new perspective. but it's the third time, twice this friendship has failed me and i am close to giving up hope. this problem, i admit is very very complicated and requires much wisdom, which i have as little as a grain of sand. i think i should let go of this friendship and concentrate on the others. i've been spending so much time thinking, "analysing", in fact weeks, and even drama i think about it i am so blur. after seeking help from shixiong and wencai, i've finally made the decision after much thinking, not like that day due to frustrations. thanks Wencai and Shixiong for the advice!
why is everyone getting so paranoid ar? =.=
i like victor's nick: so what's done can never be undone so just face the fact and learn from your mistake.she never seem to.
trust, friendship.ironic. is it, with trust, then comes friendship, or is it with friendship, you build up trust? there are many points to argue. if you don't trust a person, you won't be a befriend with him/her, but how are you supposed to find trust in a person without friendship in the first place? im crapping..in an unstable state of mind liao...siao siao..
to jinkee and minying: sorry, i know i have been neglecting you guys a lot these few days, i apologise...
well, i don not wish to comment on jh's sister's piano playing...*BURSTS OUT IN LAUGHTER*
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mlliwiwontsujdesserpedososossawshabhtobsikn
ihtistnevetnecerehtfoesuacebdasdnaderitoottsu
jsawiesuacebtisawroemrofwolbagibootsiyadaeer
htebyamgnivaelsiesolcosenoyreveamardgnirud
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I had a real good time @ 6:49 PM
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Thursday, July 28, 2005

I am annoyed, greatly annoyed. I do not have that much patience to tolerate one whole day of shit and rubbish. The day started out with bad hair because of the shampoo. the follow me green tea shampoo.so my hair ends were practically as if they were curled, and were super dry. reached school and was like...erm..checking the dictionary for every single word to complete my bahasa melayu masa? do until i blur. we had this stupid special assembly to chow some lame slides about operation rice and YEAH! they want to recruit people, yet their registration is closed. i mean...WTH?!
english were the first periods and i couldn't find my comprehension, only to realise it further in the noon it was in my history textbook. the next was PC which we slacked for the cheer shit lor...i couldn't remember what period was in the *PC* slot, so i asked bryan, thinking today confirm no PC. and it turned out to be PC. how more hopeless can i be? not more hopeless than the cold milo and inconsierate people right? recess we went to the roof top to stare at the sky, it's been such a long time since i'd done that and i really enjoyed it, it was so peaceful and calming...
bell rang and in came mr chen, who looks like mr tan. we were all so shocked mr tan came until he turned and we realised it was not mr tan.went to the lab and once again did CMI things with dawn...but at least i understand what mr chen says...
chinese was like...boring...but i did a kind deed by agreeing to help some hopeless somebody to buy the vocabulary handbook.and MIRACLOUSLY hanbao actually stopped 10 minutes earlier for us to REST. later maths, as usual, i enjoyed it and history rebonded mushroom made us copy a pile of notes that were small and close to illegible. copy until siao lor.
went to malay lugging so much books including chemistry matters. tired la. malay had the lame fire drill and despite michelle calling to remind me to bring the lanyard, i forgot to! malay saw cikgu norizan..she's looking so much older..
later malay was dismissed late, then i went to ask the photocopying lady about the photocopying fees, then she said it will take 45 minutes, i said i had no time YET she snapped the book and started zapping them. so lugging my dictionary, big fat file, storybook, malay books, etc, i stood there for 45 minutes. and she even attempted to staple the 30-page stack with a what? normal sized stapler. i was so so so so so pissed off.
went to collect that 2 kg cake, so with my haevy books, pile of paper and bag i walked wearily back home, only to receive an sms which made me laugh for once but the phone call came-- sbmy on sunday. i mean...WTH?! i changed my tuition class to sunday because it kept falling on saturdays, sumore must pay more and from the week my tuition falls on sunday till this week,they keep arranging it on sundays?! so frustrated lor! i mean......WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
so pissed off. sorry if i cheesed you guys off but i am really annoyed. haix. too bad it's a night of few stars i can gaze nothing outta the window.
i feel like joining yeah, but it's a matter of how i can manage my time and how sbmy can somehoew erm, make their schedule more constant and not inform us at the last minute....
serious no offence people, but i think sbmy peeps have pretty poor time concepts...well....i don't know...............................
I had a real good time @ 8:25 PM
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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

tingting! your green tea with me again!
now i have teo bottles of green tea....
life is full of embarrassing moments.while some are so blur....
a very good example:
Dear miss dawn michelle lazaroo was making a cup of milo when her mom came to her and remided her: "Must put hot water hor"
Dear Dawn(DD): Of course i will, who'd put cold water to make a cup of milo
but...
things never turn out the way we expect them to turn out as...
when she looked down..
she realised that her cup was already full with cold water...
tsk tsk tsk...
while another guy, being so crazy and happy unlike how he was yesterday, eyes brimmed with tears, he forgot to zip his pants..
another one thought a girl liked him and used hours to hint only to realise that it was a forwarded message....
isn't life full of embarrassing moments?
but sadistic me enjoy seeing people blush. it's quite nice, seeing the fair face turn slowly red. i like the colour change. DONT ASK ME WHY.
just now....
we were talking about princesses in shining armour, and mr hogan's joke about augustine came into my mind: Princess in paper bikini, so kuolyn and i started talking about the material-- newspaper, cellophane paper, normal double A paper*waste la, big big waste*...hahax...bombing has become a part of my daily routine....and just now...while bombing...one guy commented i cant throw properly, and i commented i shall hit his face. well i didn't mean it, but the next shot proved me right. i am good at aiming!! i hit his face!! so while i was trying to snatch the paper from him, something bad happened...very bad..
wanted to pull the hair but he siam then i accidentally pulled his ear......
so siasway!!!
good luck to those having competition later...YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. though i doubt you'll ever read. i am crapping. seriously. but i enjoy it. it's fun, don't you think so? i love crapping. in addition, crap with bombing sessions...IT ROCKS!what am i crapping? i don't know... crazy le lar... no.89757 rocks lor..
i think dawn enjoys clicking a big lot. enjoy girl. i've been drawing all over my books, paper, practically all over. i am mad. *kuolyn just put her hand on my forehead and i am NOT having a fever*i realised this whole post is rubbish. total rubbish.popular better carry chemistry matters. if not dont blame me for failing my chemistry...
[back home]
after school stayed to do some assesments, cleared my file finally and later went to popular with dawn, ting ting and B3 walking at a super slow speed. chemistry matters, there's chemistry th and physics matters...URGH... it's out of stock at the moment. so i left my number with them lor..no hope le lar... well, dawn and i were figuring out how to let bambam and pebbles be together but we failed--pathetically. meanwhile bryan and i laughed maniacally about some immatured 12 year old guy...it's really really funny la..it was so....Fun....and i stole loads of fries from bryan...hahahax....got my post-its finally, to copy notes for exam purposes..adapted from jocelyn, i think it is a really good idea. i didn't expect myself to get all the questions for the poem right, although all her answers were different...
later went library to grab a couple of books, ate icecream and squeezed onto the train with dawn and saw evelyn and co. finally reached sembawang...
NTUC no poppers, ABC no poppers, Giftland no poppers so settled for sprays...and i have the honour of writing the first message=) and had to demostrate to evelyn how to tie french plaits...LOL...
oh shit. malay common test clashes with maths trail both compulsory. wahhhhhh!! arrange for an earlier time slot bahs
I had a real good time @ 10:11 AM
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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONGTING AND BAMBAMBRYAN!
Blah. i shan't post much about today except that it was a very tiring day although i had pretty much fun seeing some birthday airhead open his present. so pround of myself that i actually wrapped the present with alternate layers of paper and plastic so he couldn't tear it. well well...it's a very serious and shock decision to make but i have made it. i wash my hands off. im tired!
i did relatively okay for my chinese test and mushroom head haven't returned us our history paper. i want it back! malay erm..kind of slacked with songs from JJ's album..wheee....
had tuition..busy tuesday day...but nevertheless, wish the two birthday people who don't know each other cheerios and all the best. to
yt:jiayous for ur future endeavours!
bbb:same, and happy looking for pebbles(the true pebbles)!
i am tired. physically and mentally. we made the decision. FINALLY. it may be a relieve but it seems to be a matamorphosis. it's gonna rain. yay....
im pissed by the popular staff. very. humph. what attitude.
how much does the chemistry matters cost?
wadever. according to the popular webpage it is 8. IT BETTER BE.
let's go book hunting tomorrow.
what a nice idea. KUOLYN REPLY ME!!!
hahahax...i bet she's fallen asleep from all the tiredness.
to all who's depressed to cheer up, to all who's unhappy to be content, to all who's sad find happiness. IM CRAPPING. fine. may all be well and happy. *meditates*
come to think of it, i've not done meditation on my own accord for weeks. i need some to help me with some peace and calmness. and hopefully metta can radiate to some and let them be well and happy. i think it works. actually i am glad i can seek spiritual guidance from buddha and my seniors from sbmy, and i hope for those who do not, find one soon, be it god or buddha, may you once again, be well and happy...
honestly i think, in regard to a guy who feels lost, we need spiritual guidance. we need to believe in something, know ourself and find our true purpose of life. we should have an ultimate goal our life, and from what i see, it's pretty apparent you're leading your life blindly. it may not be a religion, it can be a philosopher, or you can seek various apiritual guidance, just the guidance from different religions, since you're a free thinker. books and articles help too, and i greatly recommend buddhanet. well, because it's the only one i know but it is sufficient, perhaps even too much than i can take. step by step, bit by but dude.

If you want me to do something and kb me, don't ask me to do it. you're so unreasonable. i can take this no longer. don't ask me for favours. i don't care. BUZZ OFF. i wash my hands of. you're not even up to date by the terms and condition and you demand them to do it. U'RE UNREASONABLE! WHY?!
I had a real good time @ 9:43 PM
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Monday, July 25, 2005

hello...today was a happy day, in addition to the trouble-free crapping session with kuolyn yesterday night. for the first time in months, even years, i had felt so tranquil, so happy, so peaceful. it was such a nice feeling.however that pretty greatly busted my sms. i finally finished reading angels and demons. altough that took great effort, i have to admit that the book is worth reading depite setting me on my tiptoes, especially when i read it alone at night, when my parents are out and when my sis has already gone to bed. The day started out with pretty much laughter as the girls went into the toilet subsequently to take a good look at the pink shirt.
PE was,...erm...kind of lame with the lame touch rugby.during english kuolyn was pulled over to jinkee's seat and minying, kuolyn and i crapped thoughout the lesson.recess, hmm, let me think, oh ya... NICE dawn gave me a dirty yucky kick on my shin to indicate something....thanks so much..hahax...kidding...then later i spilled my meepok, causing some soup to stain my skirt, SO XIASWAY! hahax...but later went back to class with a cleaner skirt, and chemistry was more of a bombing session than a chemistry lesson. paper notes were flying all around, between the girls and the girls, the girls and the guys, the half guys and the girls...
let me tell you something. i enjoyed maths. it was fun. i don't know why. don't ask me either. and some pathetic guy up till now don't know what is RHS...cmi lor..and we're going to jurong bird park next week. i was like..whaddha?!
lunch we had a great great meeting and i, on behalf of the girls, apologise to bryan and jinhong, for kind of forcing them to come over and yet seperate the both of them. really sorry...but we finally managed to iron out the ironic situation and group ourselves after physics, although it was not THAT perfect. once again, i apologise. no doubt it is just a project work, but we were indeed pretty inco-operative, i admit to be so selfish and think of ourselves, about how we do not want to be with certain people, etc. but i admire the guys, they were pretty easy going. alhough reluctant, they still agreed to the arrangement made by us. i also admire canida for her *work is work, stop flooding your personal matters into it* spirit, although i do confess i am not that impartial and am unable to do it.
recalling the first day of school in 104 2004, mr chng was looking super serious when he came to project work. i stil remember every single word he said:
" I would like to specify on one matter, on project work. when i assign your groups, i do not want to hear any complaints. I do not want unproductivity to be the end product of any group work, especially if the reason is because you do not click well with the team members. project work is project work, i am asking you to do work and not be friends with the person. you may choose to have nothing to do with the person after the project work, but meanwhile, i do not want the same cliques to form the same groups over and over again. You should have the spirit of a leader-- being impartial between work and personal relationships. you are together for the sake of a project work, so i do not wish to address such matters."
he's so damn right. but few of us can do this.he also elaborated on the sportsmanship of the world's olympics champions. i think this concerns a little of uppekha, doesn't it? i may be wrong but that's what i think. thank you shixiong for clearing my doubts, and he suggested i use khanti, to have the patience to work with someone we don't click well with. seldom see him online and when i have doubts,bingo! he's here..hahax...under khanti said,
Practising patience and tolerance,
instead of seeing the ugliness in others,
a Bodhisatta tries to seek the good and beautiful in all.
[from xiong's blog XD]
well well, work is work, but work also depend greatly on socialising skills as well as human relationships. we should indeed be impartial, but out of 12, more than three quarter couldn't achieve it.it's a little metamorphosis, we have to socialise and have bonds with a person in order to work well with him, but you have to be impartial and not involve personal problems with work. so ironic. only two, of which i know of. i think xinhua is very easy going and suits everything. she does not raise any objections nor views, but she is alright with everything. go girl! she made the work somewhat easier. but i also want to apologise to her that she is not able to be in the same group as her dear ting ting is.
meanwhile, dear kuolyn was indeed mentally drained by this whole matter and i apologise, for, in the beginning trying to convince you into it. sorry. at least we're together now. well, sort of.before physics ended we went to sit with zr and i fell asleep.=/paisae...hehex.. last period was music and i have no comments about it. well, after that went to anchore(how to spell) point and watched the others enjoy their icecream=(no i do not want to cough like a seal once again.went to bryan's house, crapped a little, played some car racing in which i didn't know which direction i was going, and banging into walls. i admire jinhong for his scrabbles skill. but i bet i cook better scrambled eggs than you do. (jeex, kinda cold sia). on the way back we were up to lots of tricks, one moment it was locking dawn and jinhong in, another thinking how compatible and couple-like ting ting and jh look when they stood together, then walking at a fast pace to let the two enjoy their time, and later it was to dawn and jh. hahas...so messy yeahs? and we were actually discussing about jh wearing miniskirts and tubes so he can look sexier. we're sick in the mind la, but it was just for fun, and i hope you didn't find that offensive. but on the train i saw this really weird man--he was staring at dawn and i, and when his phone rang, which was in his hands, he did not bother to answer the call and continued staring.LOL. and i bought the airplant! too bad jantzen is down for renovation. SO SAD.the train was packed like siao and my shoulders were aching. home finally.
oh ya, when we went lot one on saturday, coli did something amusing. she went into the toilet cubicle, found it not the type she uses *whatever* and exits, telling the next person that the door is damaged when it isn't. so she was so siasway and was rushing to get out. hahahax...see? never even lie to strangers.
I had a real good time @ 7:09 PM
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Sunday, July 24, 2005

im planning...planning...planning to quit mr hogan's tuition..i realised he wastes loads of time crapping instead of teachin properly although he does teach good techniques, i'll grab all his notes this year and go, since it will repeat next year. yes. just came back from half a SBMY sharing session, and shixiong elaborated on the ten paramis. however i missed the stress-talk tingting will be giving. BOOs.went to j8 to grab the pink shirt that is actually, quite obscene, but too bad. wahh...why does zeming keep thinking i am sec 3? i repeat, i am sec 2only! wahhh...lol...KIDDING. but i don't think i will seek tuition help from them. maths maybe? yeahs, perhaps. congruency help. i am always so infelxible in my thinking i don't do well in congruency. who's teaching?
oh ya, i forgot to mention yesterday we took neoprints-- the first time i took neoprints with sbmy people. kinda failure ehs? but managed to=)
sad i can't stay to celebrate yongting's birthday. i'll be ENJOYING mr hogan and his cold and disgusting jokes. what's this? buy one free two? i reckon bryan and jh are out together, given how i sms one and the other replies. so tired..falling asleep liao worhs...after tuition i am gonna sleep all i can. wahaha. i'm turning into a pig. gr8 yong ting is feeling better. =)
july so may people birthday...aiyo..i pok liao la! sian sian sian sian sian!!
shall blog after i return from shitty tuition!
ok lar, tuition wasn't that shitty. and came another quiz that struck me.not that jilat actually, an di managed a b3 for the socrates worksheet! it was summary that pulled me down la. know what poeple do when they're bored to desperation?they play neopets.like me.
munch munch...nice peanuts...im starving..oh...and as promised(to myself) im memorising chu ci zhi wai de lyrics...tata~!.
I had a real good time @ 2:08 PM
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Saturday, July 23, 2005

heyo people. today very unlucky. kep falling down.and i failed my tj test! so..i guess i have to stay in Nanhua because i don't think i can make it in VJ given the number of applicants. Aw...sad...but i can still stay with my friends=)and i fell down the stairs while smsing fiona..wahhh...
it's time for me to brush up on my studies given my Kns results. so, today was fun and stupid. it was a nice bonding session and the first time i've worn a skirt (other than school skirt la duhh) out in about one to two years. so after the super tough VJC test, i went to causeway point to meet up with fiona and people. we browsed for a very long time before deciding on the gift. meanwhile, i think i pissed forester off. sorry worhs..
the guys, like any others except for ONE, hated shopping. first we decided on a bear, then something practical, in the end the gift. later we went to Lot 1 to meet up with zhenglin and yongting. it was so so so tiring as we browsed through the shelves, shops, and yongting appeared sick too. get well soon and cheer up!
and somethign really stupid happened, the handphone *FLEW* under the stall and i had to get it out with lionel's long ruler. so siasway!!
the train trip back was quiet and serene, yet full of worries.finally back home i am, to complete those homework as well as a good night sleep. should i go sbm tomorrow? it'll be in a rush and i am tired. see bahs.
and yes, i am going! and mabel has somethign naughty and pinky up her sleeves...WAHAHAHA!!! you see man!

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I had a real good time @ 6:45 PM
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Friday, July 22, 2005

I AM OFFICIALLY PISSED. pissed at what? at coffeebean. i am so so so angry with it. one moment the cake is sold at 22 another it is 32, WHADDHA?!so now i have to do what? decide what cakes to buy. Urgh. I AM SO SO SO angry. Forget it.what's done cannot be undone. so now i am fretting over what cake to get. wahhhhhhhhhhhh!
today was SUCKY. totally. horrible. Disgusting. gross. DONT ASK WHY.
maths. I finally understood the shit, and i realised i forgot to rbing my maths b home for revisions. *Cries out loud*
i spent chinese stoning....i mean..what's the use of so much crap when he doesn't teach the vocabulary well enough? gross. recess went by....i shan't elaborate on it. but i sat with the one-twelvers. reson being. i shant elaborate. bleaus. art...stupid lantern...drew a dream catcher, and got some stupid idea from miss ang's skirt one fine day. Lame me. geography...erm...nothing much lor..listen listen..highlight...
lunch we did the puzzles..and thanks ting for the glue=) english the spelling was stupid, and i bet i can't pass it. so forget it. acc we drew some stupid chicken in which mine turned out horrible. it's practically transparent. later did puzzle....EL was boring and we came out with some stupid script. but the wig was cute. yet gross. die le...tmr VJ de..HOWHOW?!
when i went back to class again....the dear girls completed the puzzle! wheee! i wonder which idiots (kidding) did R & Q and kinda...placed them wrongly...was really pissed la..hehex..I AM SO HAPPY THE PUZZLE IS COMPLETED! but it seems a little too early. wadever.
accompanied kuolyn to westmall and also grabbed a pair of earrings for myself, and i saw the airplant! whee..
so many people sick today. get well soon people! esp. dawn, minying and jh
it's miraculous how coincidental things can get. while i sent the message" hey gurl, how's life? veh long nvr talk to u liao", i received the very same message from jiahui, the moment i sent it to sipei. hehex...so nice..
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I had a real good time @ 6:34 PM
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Thursday, July 21, 2005

Life's boring. don't you ever agree? the day was busy with two consecutive tests and i have a feeling i am going to flunk it. i memorised and memorised despite my lack of sleep because of somebody who did not reply even when i sent the file. urgh. sorry. i know i was harsh...
english was boring without MSN and so kuolyn and i typed in microsoft word to communicate. well...PC i finally found out who wrote the waste of money, jinkee was wrong. it was indeed pebbles who did it. tsk tsk...hehex...jkjk....recess went....biology test was pretty tough and i haf two MCQ chopped with *wrong* already...chinese test was even tougher even though i enjoyed watching somebody struggle. KIDDING. see? you need more luck than i do. mug la! but it was indeed tough and i am not optimistic about the results. lunch went hurry burry maths was boring (yawn) but as usual, i loved it. history we were writing a stupid story....a very stupid story..
i shan't elaborate on malay but thanks eve- for accompanying me to bishan. and we finally got the prezzies. i pity yongting, birthday same as bryan...nevermind..yongting you're much better than some airhead!! teehee...no offence dude...

There is longing, a yearning in my heart.
I reach for you. I know you are reaching for me.
But I cannot reach you. Something is keeping us apart.
What is that?
I feel like there is a vacuum in my heart.
I am living but I don’t really feel alive.
How can I feel alive without that?
How can I reach you without that?
How can you reach me without that?
We are apart? But we don’t know.
What’s really keeping us apart?
Only lately I found out that I don’t have it.
I used to have it.
And I lost it.
I did not know I lost it.
But I know all the time that something is missing.
There is no life in my life.
I feel dead. At all cost.
I must get it back again.
Without it life is not worth living.
How foolish I was to neglect that and
Turn all my body and mind
Toward such superficial things.
Now my heart is crying.
What a lie I’ve lived.
What a waste it would be to live all my life like this.
How meaningless!
Can I overcome my wrong conditioning?
Have I enough courage to overcome this lie?
Can I live a healthy, meaningful life?
Am I healthy enough to become really healthy again?
To become a really whole and complete human being again? (Sayadaw U Jotika)

<>Once I was afraid of losing my friends because of my changing understanding and values. But, slowly, now I am able to accept that. I must be true to myself.- i await for this day to arrivei

to do list:

feature article
powerpoint
malay book review
malay project
order of cake
geography presentation
sorting out of feelings
a good sleep


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I had a real good time @ 7:36 PM
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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

now currently erm...*enjoying* mself in comp lab..so happy webmessenger can load, and so happy the dummy comps are faster. wheee~the puzzle making irritated lotsa noses and noe sth? inying must be feeling so so so quiet and peaceful without me yakking at her. well. i can barely say a full sentence. shouldn't have ate icecream..and im attacked by the stupid mosquito...NINE bites...owwww.....wahhhhhhhhhhh...tired...tomorrow got bio and chinese....gonna die man..i think i am seeing canida erm.....practising some yoga? speaking of yoga, when i told a few pals sister sue the 100+ year old lady teaches yoga, i think i saw their eyeballs popping out. the oldest guy eats red meat and red beer, while sister sue eats raw lettuce. it's...TOTALLY OPPOSITE! and i realised that Victoria test this sat...so fast...good luck to minying for the personality test too! *sniff sniff*dummy nose.
geography. the girls enjoyed highlighting the guys' hair. bu we pissed them off.sorry.maths...always kena electric shocks from mrs wong...assembly the quiz was amusing...the stupid answer with the weird host made dawn and i laugh. and i bet yanglu enjoyed singing...went down for lunch..then jinkee and wuyi were staring at junyang wondering if it is him...i said no..but it turned out yes. psycho bell went for him to sign on her handphone. derrick rocks more.but he is indeed good. drama was relatively boring but i don't really mind. i am so looking forward to the farewell. so stayed till like...515 mugging science, walked to central with dear dawn and made my way home of course. YES I AM BLOGGING AND MUGGING. i was mugging chapter 7 on the train and one guy was reading along with me from jurong to woodlands. kinda... siasway because at clementi that time nearly bumped into him with the notes in my hand then he was staring at it...today wasn't interesting...neither was it that boring because i did enjoy some moments...
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I had a real good time @ 10:47 AM
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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

you better not talk to me. otherwise i will bite your head off.
the day started out okay with PE as i sat and slacked because of my throat and later CME. it was. erm. making some blush? while jinkee shot me with questions that i really didn'tknow how to answer. history test was pretty easy, i can say. at least the mugging and sacrifition of sentosa is worth it. i finished the paper and it started raining...so i started looking at the rain pullewotdetratssraetyhwonudidnahrehrehtoettuobarehfognikniht
the highlight of the day, i can say, is the search for puzzle. heng heng the pasar malam at bishan is still there, so the puzzles, most close for a male was the one on friendship, though it still looks girly, BUT WHO CARES.wahaha..and i can say kuolyn and i created a nice nice nice tongue twister. malay was stupid as we were made to dance.....LOL..
yawns..im tired...nites people...this is a bs post la..

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I had a real good time @ 9:45 PM
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Monday, July 18, 2005

as usual，go view，character encoding，Unicode (UTF-8)
today i went into school and talked to minying with my eyes closed...sorry girl...i was simply very very tired over the matter and that drained everything out of my mind and i wasn't tired the matter makes me weak. we had this *SPECIAL* assembly which caused me to be greatly disgusted. Out butts were practically stuck to the ground for an hour and a half. boring. on the journey to school i had pretty much difficulty talking as words came out to be whispers and coughs. so basically while evelyn was erm..yakking away i just responded with a smile or an *orh* ..i think she is quite pissed off? i duno...by the way, happy birthday jocelyn. after school went to IMM daiso to get the gift for mr chng..and i ended up buying some kind of aromatherapy...green tea and apple incense...LOL...but that was the most practical gift i could ever get. the trip to IMM was fruitful as i realised something about kuolyn and i was SHOCKED.Went to sports hall to erm...watch the guys play horrible badminton as i mugged? as well as some catching of a ten buck note *dont worry, it well be settled.* and some sliding around the hall by a person with very worn out shoes? well at least i managed to study and absorb stuff into this brain of mine. later we were like...deciding where to go because some guy wanted to avoid some gullible guy who believed he died in a ferrari car crash..so we cant go central, cant take 198, cant take mrt...URGH....in the end went tiong bahru plaza to buy the board, the sticking plastic wrap and to hunt for puzzle but apparently failed.i was shocked to see popular selling the bandari CDs, sumore all the CDs that's ever been out by bandari.so nice. ate ice jelly with cocktail with extra lime juice(wahaha) and mugged while waiting for the others to enjoy their desserts. went off to sunplaza in hope giftland has puzzles but it proved me wrong-greatly. It's only got cancer and pisces puzzle. urgh. then beary and friends only carry precious moments ones and i got so despo i stepped into cartoon house.the lady was very kind to check with the supplier for stock, and it turned out to be a disney puzzle that costs 30 bucks. but i guess the lady got my idea wrong. i asked for anime and she told the suppplier ANIMAL.urgh. so my last resort- tomorrow to causeway point pasar malam before i go malay. hopefully i can find something there. most probabaly. if not I GIVE UP! but anyway dawn and i had a great time laughing hysterically about nothing, but it was fun. and we think jh's fringe looks nicer today. serious. no joke. but his hair at the back of his head looks...erm....too thick? heck la. don't care. well i guess SBMY had a great time at sentosa yesterday..and what was i doing? MUGGING. gross. the world is so so so so so gross. i miss iceskating. i wanna go iceskating. it's so fun, but too bad for those who don't know how to =P
and i would liek to add, dear evelyn, victor is only 14. sec 2. no older than me. so if he looks old....*DONT LOOK AT ME*and dear evelyn, victor thinks u are sec two or three..age miscommunication...guess the both of them are too mature unlike me. enjoy childhood man! hehex...children's day still carry a special meaning for me..wheeeeee.....
back to mugging. stupid day ehs? travelling here and there...mug mug mug mug mug mug!

i just received the letter from nj and......
I DIDN'T GET IN!
surprisingly it didn't cause me a blow.in fact i felt nothing. not even disappointment. perhaps it's because of friends. but friendship can be very complicated. it's also because of friendship i want to leave nan hua. but i wonder....why are there true and fake friends? aren't friends supposed to be truthful and honest to each other? friendship is a very very special bond in which we all treasure, at least, most of us do. Yet it has led me into a whirl of confusion and emptiness...friends. friendship require faith, like how buddhists have faith in Buddha, Christians have faith in God, etc. i recalled anghwee once talking about friendship during one of our sharing sessions, and i had posted it in my previous blog before, but now, once again, i am going to grab the article once again. i did send a copy to canida before, if she ever read. hahax..
it's extracted from www.buddhanet.net; the complete article being http://www.buddhanet.net/friend.htm but i am just gonna highlight some points, because it is 10 pages long.

the very beginning of the article says:

What is the key to people’s hearts? (Understanding.)
The most valuable thing in life is relationship (friendship).
Life cannot be real if relationships are not real.

Relationship is sacred.
The best thing I can give you is my friendship.

Relationship is the source of the greatest joy and the greatest mental suffering.
The quality of our life depends much on the quality of our relationship with people around us.

It is nice to have good friends. Life would be so flat without kalyana mittas (noble/spiritual friends).

How rare it is to have a friend.

Dear friend, I don’t have many friends left. So I value whatever friends I still have.

To have a friend is one of the most wonderful experiences in life. To develop a deeper and deeper understanding of oneself and the world is also very wonderful. For me understanding is the most satisfying thing in life.

There is no time and space in our friendship.

I have made many new friends with whom I can relate to; I don’t expect anything from them: just open-hearted, free-flowing communication.

anghwee talked about this around eight months ago, and it still stays etched in my mind till now. because it indeed is very meaningful. it set me thinking deep deep deep....what's friendship?

Relationships with people are not really reliable in most cases. Most relationships are just games. An honest, open, sincere, genuine, non-manipulative, non-domineering relationship, where there is mutual respect and trust, and which does not have unrealistic expectations - is such a relationship possible?

 interpersonal communication is almost never achieved except in part. You probably never feel fully understood by another, and neither do I. Yet, I find it extremely rewarding when I have been able, in a particular instance, truly to communicate myself to another. I find it very precious when, for some moment in time, I have felt really close to, fully in touch with, another person.

I believe I know why it is satisfying to me to hear someone. When I can really hear someone it puts me in touch with him. It enriches my life. (C. Rogers)


With sincerity, openness, understanding, caring, loving-kindness and patience they will surely work. Most relationships don’t work because they don’t have free flow of information (openness), genuine caring, real respect for others, and an understanding that we are all human beings (each of us has our own imperfections, limitations). Expecting too much from another person can also be a cause of disappointment which leads to rejection (thinking this is not what I expected, or acceptable).

With openness, vulnerability, honesty, metta (loving-kindness) and understanding it will be a good relationship which will promote spirituality, maturity, etc. Most relationships become routine after a while (lifeless, stagnant).

Without honesty there can be no real communication; without real communication there can be no real relationship; without real relationship there can be no real help (support, teaching, etc.).

You need a good friend (or good friends, which is better, if possible). One should not live in a place where there is no friend. But what is a friend? And you need a place which is suitable to your temperament.

It is easy to have compassion for a suffering being, but it is not easy to live with that person for the rest of your life.

Love is not enough for two people to live together; deep understanding of each other is necessary. Love is not enough in a relationship; deep understanding and appreciation is also necessary. See if you can accept all the bad things about him without wanting to change him and see if you can also respect him as he is now. Dependent relationships don’t work well.

Relationships shouldn’t be used as a means; it should end in love, understanding, respect and appreciation. Nobody is perfect. Sometimes relationships become entanglement if they are not grounded on right attitude.

i bet half of you have fallen asleep. it really urged me to blog about this.

i really like this song. it's meaningful to me.
除此之外

歌手:范逸臣

范逸臣-除此之外
词:阿怪曲:陈达伟

say goodnight晚安
谢谢你陪我一整个夜晚
close your eyes,be quiet
我明白你有自己的不安
很多来不及我不曾看见
我只遇见你的现在
不管你接受或离开
i hope to stay for a while
除此之外要你明白
你的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待
其实都还算愉快
除此之外非常遗憾
你的心我还是打不开
and if you need somebody
我确定我会在
不会走开
so goodbye晚安
舍不得看你觉得不自在
it's alright,i'm fine
看起来这故事会写不完
很多差一点你没有发现
你只认识我的现在
不管你留下或走开
i'm gonna stay for a while
除此之外我要你明白
你的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待
其实都还算愉快
除此之外非常遗憾
你的心我还是打不开
and if you need somebody
我确定我会在
除此之外我还在等待
你的心将为我敞开
but if you need somebody
你知道我会
不会走开


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I had a real good time @ 6:12 PM
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Sunday, July 17, 2005

just back from tuition...it was pretty alright but the thought of history test dampens my mood...looking for wan jun biao mei...aww...the maple client isn't working..sorry.. i have nothing much to blog about actually, but added the clip below the taggie...hope derrick can get in again during the revival round...yeahs...and wishing all the sbmy peeps to enjoy themselves at sentosa..haiz...forget it...MUG!!!someone point a parang-parang at me and make me mug. please?

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I had a real good time @ 4:54 PM
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Saturday, July 16, 2005

while i wait for maple to download..which has already taken hours and i hope i can install it, even not so, it won't be my loss. It's not me who is so desperate to play but someone who was begging me to play so i am just being nice. see? i am nice. LOL.
oh ya.. and i forgot to mention in yesterday's post that[close ur eyes if u are scared]
we entered the threatre, headed for the toilet, the cubicle door was half closed and i saw a kid standing, rather, floating there la. so i told dawn and kuolyn but they use dti anyways.eeks. im never gonna watch a movie there any more.
i spent most of my time doing the art, in which until now i have only half of the paper covered and it's like i don't know how to mix the colours any further to darken it. i learnt something important yesterday- we aren't never supposed to mix black with a colour to darken it. we should make use the colour wheel(finally i know it's use, and luckily i kept it till this day) in which i ahve to add orange to blue, green to red and yellow to purple. i was indeed shocked and asked my sis if she was sure about the theory. the practical proved her right. honestly i like art, but i guess i am too chor lor to be an art student. i lack creativity too. i'll stick to memorising books and formulas. i have the 1991 o level paper untouched and the summary undone. SO NICE. mr hogan is practically GREAT at flooding hsi students with homework. I WANT BACK THE SEC TWO CLASS! argh.....nevermind...so i am gonna miss the sentosa outing for 1: tuition 2:mugging. can't believe im so hardworking ehs? =P KIDDING. but i don't think i can afford to slack any longer.
i woke up with a super bad blocked nose and had to breathe through my mouth. when my mum stuffed me with those dark purple sweet potato, it took to years to bite, breathe and swallow at the same time. now it's much better.phew.
i don't understand why mama tend to compare Buddhism and Christianity all the time . honestly,, it pisses me off. i mean, all religions teach to be good. why bother? just have faith in your own religion. why criticise the other religions? we're all out for good reasons. if you have time to criticise others, why not use the time to learn more about your own religion? it's not like we are enemies with christians or what.
and i wonder when will the day come-the day i can gui1 yi1
and i have nothing more to say so off i go while waiting for replies and erm...nothing much la..hehex...
ps:better not talk to me now befor ei bite your noses off
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I had a real good time @ 8:41 PM
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Friday, July 15, 2005

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today was...okay. yes, okay. i reached school at like...6.30 and listened to 933. no very nice songs though. boos. some arsehole borrowed my pallet and brush to paint and he made a mess out of the originally white board and i was left to scrape it off. then the brush ask him to stuff into the water bottle which i left behind yesterday and he refused, in addition, went to wet the piece of tissue maent to dry the brush. urgh. so frustrating.first period was maths, relatively interesting. chinese..Mr Lee was like an aeroplane shooting his mouth off. he's always wasting his time talking rubbish. recess i just sat in the classroom doing maths, then stoning away...thinking......
art...urgh..as i sat thinking once again i didn't realise it was my group's turn to present and i did horribly...urgh...then we went to pack the goodie bag whatever and i was nothing but grumpy. geography i enjoyed it alot, it was such a nice song. miss lee is really nice...but loves trees too much i guess...but she's pretty humourous...later just erm...tidied my locker a little, packed up and went off to jec..
ate kfc and waited such a long time for the stupid burger because dear dawn had ordered the last one in stock. we had a nice talk and some truth revealed about the past. what mr lee said was also told which set the other three laughing. it was so...embarrassing la..
initial D rocks, so nice...edison chen is so..Shuai...his character in the show is so nice la.!!AND I WOULD LIKE TO ADD HIS HAIR HAS NICE LAYER, STYLE AND HIGHLIGHT.HE HAS NO BIG NOSE OKAY!yeps, i agree with dawn that piao yi rocks like duno what..hehex..i pointed out jay chou was wearing a shirt with a big 69, another scene which set kuolyn dawn and i into a fit of laughter was this: 我最讨厌皮薄肉滑身上一道疤痕也没有的娘娘腔！later we slowly realised the character jay chou was playing resembled someone called cecelia.....=.=but not shuai la!
went to popular...thinking of what to get for somebody and mr chng, and later we had a crazy thought: make a puzzle. Once again the search for a puzzle will be on...then later the making which will bond friendship and train patience.the moment dawn got off the train 933 started talking about initial D, and later i saw two whom i greatly admire.
their use of handsigns made me green with envy.despite their inability to speak, the two seemed full of confidence and contented.like any others, they dressed up, have their hair highlighted, styled, applied cosmetics, manicure, etc. within their eyes spelled happiness and trouble free. they laughed and smiled throughout the train journey.silence was throughout the *cabin* as the two spoke with their hands, eyes and various body languages. so why shouldn't we be content and happy? life can be as simple as that yet is it so tough, contentment is always the road to happiness, i believe. i really admire the two for being able to live with such contentment despite their shortcomings.

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I had a real good time @ 6:24 PM
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Thursday, July 14, 2005

well, while i wait for the paintbrushes i bought to soften(unlinke SOMEBODY who dump them into hot water) , i shall blog! the first two periods were english, and i would like to thank leon for FINALLY remembering to bring the Angels and Demons. english was okay, erm, not much things happened, later PC jinkee passed me na xiao zi zhen shuai, erm..it's like one moment i have no books to read and another moment i have so many to! recess went down.had a little quarrel with minying over losing friends...physics went to the lab, partnered dawn and we were discussing about using the wires to strangle WHILE electrocuting SOMEBODY who commented that we CMI. so better watch out miss. but basically dawn and i had much fun and we DID manage to do everything right okay.Chinese i enjoyed it quite a lot too(don't ask me why okay, im outta my mind).lunch i shan't elaborate but i really want to apologise to minying. Maths was fun (i don't know why) and i was handling three pieces of paper at one time: The maths notes, a note and another note. history i enjoyed myself with dear jinkee. but today was horrible. don't ask why.
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I had a real good time @ 8:07 PM
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Wednesday, July 13, 2005

today was okay. First two periods sat there talking and crapping since more than half the class had gone for 88th Anniversary thingy, so only some of us were in the class and miss seah decided not to teach. surprisingly mr lee is absent or whatever today, he did not turn up and in came thomas. he was drawing something round with a wriggly string attached and it came to my mind that is was a sperm. then later he kept asking dawn for her views and in the end sat at leon's sit to *ahem* chat with dear dawn. apparently kuolyn and i ps her while we enjoyed our sweet moment together(jkjk) and later thomas started talking to me about tadpoles...later turning into amphibians blah blah blah and his topic suddenly changed to some species of fish in some ocean that changes their sex at certain times of the year, and he left me a question that left me traumatised:so you go back and think, what is your sex.
Waddha?! Of course i am a girl right? i don't go for gender changes do i?!urgh. i think he's mentally unstable.today jh went to school with a lost voice. but later it seems that he had regained his voice. so sad. Pw...we had *fun* with our blanky nicknames. and i enjoyed suanning some guy that was pissed off. but if i really did piss you off, sorry. geography was boring as i sat there highlighting blindly. mrs wong was absent for maths so we had this sickening maths worksheet.well so many people ar efalling sick, so get well soon to Somebody n me!
oh ya, cousin gerald will be coming back from australia, i think, today. congrats upon completion of your course! sheesh..now my throat's hurting. gonna catch some sleep, but before that, i watched the vcd i borrowed from jinkee and was pleased by the happy ending.we were released early today and i took the train with dear cindy.
sorry cin i was practica lly keeping my mouth so so so shut i think you felt weird. i really didn't feel like talking just now. sorry.
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I had a real good time @ 4:19 PM
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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Today was a very tiring day. So i am here blogging instead of attending chinese tuition. i really dislike the way the new literature teacher teaches, while jinkee and i wondered about her weird fashion sense and about her wearing her skirt below hip instead of below waist. it is weird. and my cramps have been getting from ba dto worse. where's the panadol that's hot pink in colour? today...i was totally bored to death by the alchemist...leon yeo wbetter bring that book tomorrow. so today hanbao decided to jump us with a stupid composition competition. urgh. Pe lesson went by...the cme with the art presentations..and i really wanna thank chuihan for redo-ing the presentation, sorry, i deleted it...sorry...recess went by. history, i think the techer speaks like miss laura tan, with an accent and softly. she's gone too fast and i was furiously highlighting my book. english was boring...and i nearly fell asleep...don't know why so tired...literature of course with jinkee and i wondering about miss seah's hip and lastly chinese with some compo writing in which i enjoyed.jinkee had a perverse chinese compo about red undergarment bringing luck in one paragraph*ewww* and jh stupidly explained wad er...*e***t* was to jinkee with a very stupid manner with his pen. and i reckon he used more time checking the dictionary than using to writing.
i wrote a 900 word compo about love, not just the bgr love but the love for others, the society, etc, and the persona, ie, "i" am an old gramm. and thank you raymond, the email you related me to, for jane, ended up being some ulu person from korea. so siasway.
malay today was...tiring. cikgu azreen dan cikgu zafiah is away for some conference and as usual, cikgu latifah came in and dropped most of our heads onto the table for some snoring. Cikgu A dan Z are still best!my back hurts and i am so so so tired...despite enjoying compo today was pretty bad, although i still enjoyed laughter with minying's chapter and jinkee's idiocracy(jkjk) and being able to see weihan once again...today was so tiring...
combination of shenghui dan leon.
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I had a real good time @ 7:43 PM
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Monday, July 11, 2005

Happy BIRTHDAY SHARON!
112 will be holding a farewell for mr chng, who cares to join please tell me!
I am gonna repost the post. It was stupid.the day started out Lamely when pe approached, and we were made to run and throw the stupid rugbys. And the velco(how to spell=/) strip wasn't as sticky as it should be and my skirt was falling off. urgh. Justine, i am so very disappointe din you to even ask, who is mr chng. tsk tsk.. the next period was english,we had a relatively quiet lesson with miss tan sick. when louis said jinhong looks sexy in his blouse-pe shorts attire, and dear miss jinkee, upon hearing sexy, told me, "ehs, you imagine jinhong in a bra" . oh my. so the both of us laughed and laughed, told minying, and she said: well, i think he'll need a push up bra.gross. later Kuolyn, tingting and dawn were joining in the laughter, and we all agree that he needs a push up pink bra with extra padding. so perverse la......
recess went by...
came physics which took my mind a long long long time to process before i could finally understand, jinkee and i went into a crazy mood again, because we realised mr tan pronounces assume as azzume, so the both of us laughed like two nutcases.then two periods of maths. BUT. i enjoyed the lessons. *crazee, but that's the truth* lunch went by with some singing, and blur me only realised there wasn't any chinese only at the end of the day. miraculously, miss yeo released us earlier. but i stayed back to read my book. i was about to leave at 3 when stupid leon yeow made me stay to guide him in his no hope book review. so i stayed to help him, edite dhis essay and found numerous faults in it, but i pretyt enjoye dmyself suanning him although my stomach was grumbling.
even after three hours of sleep, i am still very tired. and i look forward to sleeping, but it always seems i am always lying awake on my bed, staring at the glow in the dark stars on the ceiling. so now i am in a fairly grumpy mood because i am feeling very unwell with some cramps and stomachaches. double attack. urgh. so u can conclude i am having pms.
i am left with the newspaper article review to complete, double again, for tuition and for school. i reckon i will write the same one for both. or at least extract both from friday weekly.
today is sharon's birthday. did i mention that she took the tj test with me? i forgot if i did.=/
i sent the sms to ask who wants to go for the farewell at 112, and i guess some guy just thought i chose 112 on purpose, i did NOT. i am only choosing 112 because i always hang out with 112 with mr chng so he is aware that i am on pretty good terms with 112. on the other hand, i know 112's class com better than other classes', therefore i chose 112.112 has a friendly class com. I AM NOT DOING IT ON PURPOSE. I DIDNT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT! ok? so i sincerely apologise if i have in any way, offended you by choosing 112.
i am holding so many usernames and passwords i am blur. so i apologise if i have to keep asking for your password when you request a change in template, while some idiots are even lazy to delete their blogs and i have to do it for them. Einstein once said, the difference between geniuses and idiots are that geniuses have limited ability while idiots have unlimited idiocracy.
I SO TOTALLY AGREE.
no offence. just kidding, and i am off for my sleep. goo dnight everyone, sleep tight and sweet dreams.
yay! 933 is playing simiao, jinkee and i sang it during lunch. this is the first time i heard it on radio. it rocks. wan3 jun1 biao3 mei4 rocks too. anyone has the album?
I had a real good time @ 4:53 PM
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Sunday, July 10, 2005

Happy Birthday Bimbo Lindy,Regina, Felicia(ytd), Anghwee, Sister Sue and Children!
i am still grumbling about not being able to attend the birthday session today. Nevermind, i shall wish everyone well here, in my blog. i will be attending my first secondary 3 class at Mr Hogan's. I miss weixuan, being the only two girls in the sec 2 class, and in addition i've known her via zhijun at third lang beforehand, it seems that the bond between the both of us are strong. I miss her. (yes, it's only one week, but i DO miss her), i am really afraid i might lose contact of her, like how i used to after she stopped attending her french classes. I am afraid i might be expelled to the sec 2 class once again, given the pupils from various top schools like yuhui, from NYGH. no doubt i knew her since i was primary four, but i have not seen her since primary six. It seems like we are once again, strangers. To be honest, if not for SBMY, i wouldn't change classes, i'd rather stay with the sec 2 fellas that make me laugh. I've gotten used to their weird actions that make weixuan and i giggling away, but yes, i concentrate on the lesson at the same time. Ahhhhhhhhh! i miss weixuan!!! i am friend-sick. I really like her outspoken and cute character, the way she stares in ager at the guys or Mr hogan, even. Haha, can you even believe, i will miss augustine for his humour, Raffael for the shrugs he always give, that always annoys Mr Hogan, Yipseng with his rubbish-talking and the Tung Kare One (TKW) jokes. Winky for his innocence and Hongtat with his secret giggles and blushing. I've a strong feeling that the first lesson will be horrendous. Well, i shall continue after i get back from the lesson. Suddendly coli seems so crazy, and we enjoy our moment we spend together everyweek.
[back from tuition]
so i am in the same class as Yuhui, joyce quit and auntie Fiona's son. despite yuhui already being in NYGH, she is applying for VJ, reason being she dislikes HCJC. weird ehs? She' s approaching Mr Hogan for the essay help while i've already posted mine. The class was pretyt okay, not as fun as the sec two class, but i do miss the sec 2 class. in this sec 3 class, there is a girl who is even fiercer towards Mr Hogan than Weixuan is. And i'd like to thank Weixuan, the dear girl for her gift, a book mark, i reckon? On the other hand. i was greatly disgusted by the way Mr Hogan Zilians. He was like: I am a pretty boy, so beautiful,gorgeous, muscular, young, gentlemanly, nice, smart, sweet, good looking,......
and all i have to say that he is disgusting. of course we are all just joking.It's pouring now and i am enjoying Instant noodles. Rummaging through the whole fridge for some xiao3 bai2 cai4, i can't find any other vegetables other than lady's finger and cabbage. ewww, but i ha dto make do with cabbage. now the stupid online radio isn't working. nevermind, i shall listen to my favourite songs. i really really like xing fu de shun jian from the lavender show and it's all thanks ryan for telling me the title. he's the one and only other person i know that watches xun yi cao, thanks melon! i don't think i have much to blog about already...and it's only yesterday that i realised mr lee's business has failed and he's jobless..haix...
eeeeeeeeee...the egg yolk is still so watery..........YUCKS

it suddenly seems everyone so close to me are leaving me...weixuan...then mr chng...he's a good teacher, really, always helps with my problems and even wrote me two nice testimonials...despite him always suan`ning me but he really has helped me a great lot. always providing gr8 advices for me and showing care for his pupils. really wanna thank him...and he also supported the SWAMI fundraising, though he couldn't make it there himself. may appear to be mean but he is indeed a nice person...even allowed soem gooey hot pink thingy on himself on his birthday.he asked me: will you miss nh if you go jc? when i thought of this once again...in addition of losing two people whom i am pretty comfortable with, i really don't feel like thinking about it. he said he'll miss the students, but because RI will be a better place for him to develop as a pe teacher, he decided to go there. it's been a good two years. i may not even have such a strong bond with some of my friends than with him.he's also a great friend, actually.
i won't want to leave my friends either, but for the sad memories, i'd rather do so.
I had a real good time @ 1:17 PM
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Saturday, July 09, 2005

Hi everyone. I am downright exhausted but well...I am blogging. Just came back from beloved SBMY, and learnt a lot of meaningful stuff. when i stepped into the dark house, i smell durian. YES! wahaha...Today was a relatively busy day.
I woke at around six forty five to set off for TJ. Papa drove me there and we got lost in Tampines, so after much dragging we found it, but i think i caused him to be late for work. Sorry.
The test paper-the GAT test was...erm..like...easier than NJ's la...nj's is 60qn 15 minutes, TJ's was 38 questions 30 minutes, but the questions were more challenging. Later the english paper, it was supposed to be a critical writing essay and a creative writing.For creative writing, i wrote on the question,it was a picture of a zebra with drooping stripes, and there wrote: i think it's stress.
so there goes my STUPID essay...(it's just a summarise of what i wrote, because i forgot what i wrote=P)

Miss Zebra, my, my,take a good look at yourself in the mirror. All you do is study and study to gain a PhD in medicine, no doubt that is what the present society requires, but stop pressurising yourself, will you?

Oh my goodness gracious me, dear girl, look at the countless wrinkles on your face, but some, or rather, lots of Loreal Wrinkle Decrease will do the trick. Look at your sagging skin, poor you, i think you should purchase some SKII Face Mask. It definitely can help to firm your skin.

I told you so many times not to stay up so late to study, yet you refuse to heed my advice. Your eyebags are practically buldging out. I think i can afford a carton of Fade-Out whitening cream for you. And your stripes, what are you doing my dear girl? You desperately need botox to keep them back into shape.

Gosh! Your gray hair! Now now, take a good look at my black and silky hair, Wella Hair Dye will do a good job out of it, just that i doubt you will be skilful enough to do a good job out of it. You really should learn from me.

Even your hoofs are dry. I suggest you apply some ellgy to stop those horrid cracking.They look so disgusting.

Why are you, Miss Zebra, sacrificing your beauty, because of some books?! Look, yes, your teachers and parents, even friends expect you to excel, but you have already excelled greatly by being a surgeon at the young age of eighteen, though you do look eighty.

That is the present society, students suffer from lack of sleepdue to the tonnes homework bombarded on them, the endless remedial lessons during the holidays.......

(and i forgot the last sentence i used to conclude)

Stupid right? idea gotten from Miss Piggy. Duno why suddenly thought of it so just wrote some crap..later the maths was pretty easy. Finally, the end of everything. So i went to tampines central to take 23 to go to SBM. SBM the puja kinda totally siaswayed myself..didn't know when to bring the lights out...lolx...and i notice Anghwee's leg seems injured...get well soon. tomorrow is Bimbo Lindy and anghwee's birthday. Sister sue will be turning 109 tomorrow with her adopted children. It's such a great pity that i cannot turn up tomorrow, have to mug bio adnd go tuition. Today bhante briefed us about the four disciples of Buddha, namesly Mongallana, Sariputta, Kassapa and Ananda. I learnt a lot from today's sharing session and it was a great chance for me to bond with the freshies of SBMy, people like Jiaqi, zhenghao, Peiting and many more. We also raised money for Shixion'g uncle neo's family. So for this two weeks i am gonna save lots of money and donate to the family. Meanwhile, i helped leon to get the donations, collected 16bucks, but i was pleased, because despite having to donate for Shixion'g cousins, they still pretty generously donated for me. Thanks guys^^ so leon yeow the remaining 7bucks will be up to yourself. Maybe four bucks even, because sab may be donating 3, as promised. Coli and I had lots of fun in the train Acting lesbians and laughing away, she's such a sweet girl, i really like her(as a friend). I am glad, really glad to have met so many friends via SBMY.
about her. ytd toked to sby abt her, and i still feel stuck in the middle. i want to help her, yet think she is indeedtrying to gain attention. i dislike her sttitude, but i want to help her. what should i do?
I had a real good time @ 10:22 PM
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Friday, July 08, 2005

in mac now enjoying some fries....was pretty ironic when we ordered the food and i felt sth splattering on my shirt...looked and realised nice sabrina has squeesed some tomato kethup on me.and now i am sitting here with some blos of brownish thingys on moi shirt? so gross la...then sab was laughing away...such a sadistic girl...sheesh....and i realised sth...i ruffled jh's hair just now and now im eating my fries....*PHOOEY!*...ytd some very stupid misunderstanding made jinkee and i jeer greatly at somebody...hahax...it was so stupid...today kinda boring..nothing much happened...maths...oh ya...jinhong...stupid guys like him are simply blur.supposed to copy the maths question in mahs book 2, he dunogo copy in book 1(havent hand in la duhh) or his notebook la...stupid guy right?very sleepy today...practically fell asleep just now while waiting for evelyn and sab.
tmr's gonna be a busy day...so today must get sufficient beauty sleep...=P...so sian la...maths' making me blurified(ya i noe this is somebody's copyright.YES I AM COPYING. SO WHAT?) and oh ya...ytd i forgot to talk abt sth i wnatedto talk abt
on my way home i saw jeremy. apparently he has forgotten me. not that i did not expect it, but i was a little disappointed. nenories flashed back to when i was in primary 5. he was assigned to me for the daily buddy reading. he did me proud by improving tremedously and scored well for his english examinations. but what happened was that because his results were now good, he was not assigned to join the buddy reading programme when he was in primary two, and me primary six. greatly disappointed, i still showed my care and concern when i see him occasionally in school. but as time went by, i saw him fall into the hands of bad company yet could do nothing about it. i talked to him but he refused to listen, shrugging his shoulders and walking off. he came from a pretyt poor family, and alli could tell him was that he was fortunate to get a one dollar pocket money, because when i was in primary 6, i only received seventy cents daily. he would splurge all his money on totally unnecessary stuff like toys. i felt so helpless. now it seems that it's my fault. i didn't stop him.
another buddy of mine, name felice, same age as jeremy, was a slow learner. she was pretty reluctant to learn until i chided her. so the next year she wasn't in the programme any longer. till now i haven't seen her, bt when i last saw her on the last day of school in primary 6, she had grown chubbier and is much mor cheerful than she used to. i wa spleased.
i really pity jeremy. his family poor, and his grandpapa from the state that he's in, is very unhealthy and struggles even to walk fast.
life's like that, isn't it? but i really find it my fault that i let jeremy fall into bad company. i wonde rhow he is now.
tomorrow's the temasek test. suddenly im hesitating--what will happen to my friends if i leave nanhua? i won't get to comfort jinkee when she cries, scold jh when he thinks low of himself or help evelyn with her homework. nevertheless i am still bent on leaving nanhua. why? not much reason, but just that i really dislike nanhua. maybe because of the teachers. teachers here are greatly biased against some students. i hate this. i hate to look at thos epublic caning. it's horrible. i don't want a cruel school. in addition, this school holds pretty much bad memories for me. whoa. this is a long post. who has dozed off? Lol. i am glad the misunderstanding between the two fo us. he didn't tell me until now, and i was actually unaware that he actually thought that way. hope we're gr8 friends now.
to sbmy-ians: who wants to help me donate for the SJAB donation card?pls?
I had a real good time @ 3:22 PM
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Thursday, July 07, 2005

Just came back from malay...and my leg hurts...ytd itchy itchy then scratch scratch...this morning was okay...but took off socks that time the skin peeled off..so it hurts...today was relatively okay. but in school was pretty irritated and didn't really feel like talking..so kinda dao-ed some people...honestly i think physics was interesting....and i am bent on getting goo dgrades so while trying to listen, er...Minying kept calling me to say that the lesson was boring and i was really really really irritated and shouted a *what?!* at her...sorry...was harsh...Jinkee and i had pretty much fun poking each other and i guess jinkee let out a yelp during...i forgot the period...haha...such a blessing to have her by my side. but i still dislike my sit due to 3people. argh. honestly i am tired of having to sit with the same person all the time...
Malay was Nice. As Perverse Nanhuarians, when required to create a riddle of something we wear, the nanhua team with eunice created the riddle on...ahem....Bra....so today i realised br* in Malay is coli. shall tease coli about it.so the cheemology guy group(all guys la) still had no clue on what coli is and their lousy cheapskate(jk) dictionary did not have the word in it. too bad.honestly i like my new malay teachers, Cikgu Azreen and Cikgu Zariah. They are like cikgu norizan and cikgu z....forgot her name..still deciding what song should i put for the blog. and my blog seems...er...ULU...but i like this skin a lot a lot. reading the beach comber now, it's pretty nice. the next book i shall be reading is the Alchemist. Hope it's nice. Apparently i don't have much interest in comics. i simply don't understand them. i hope Mum lets me join the Tainan exchange program...it'll be nice...i feel like i am falling asleep...yesterday SomeBody kept forgetting he has a handphone, thus always forgetting to reply me, therefore, i really really think he should just give me his handphone. thanks to zeming, i know how to get to SBM from tampines. but i don't know how to go to TJC from the INT. someone save me. sharon's going too. good luck girl=)
VJ sent an sms that read this:
To help us est no of people coming for VIP openhouse so as not tooverorder and waste food, pse help us by indicating which openhouse you wish to attend.pse send vip if u r not attending, vip fri if u want to come on fri, vip sat if u want to come on sat.it took me six read throughs to understand the sms.
on my way to malay, i saw the guy from mr hogan's tuition. sad i forgot his name and for once i realised he is so tall. we did not greet, but did exchange curious glances.
btw...thanks for accompanying me to Bishan^^.i AM tired. physically. and i really feel bad having to Pangseh xuan. i really wonder if that new tingyi guy joining the sec 2 class is leetingyi. if it is, i'll be so happy i transferred. reason being, he uses a lot of correction tape. off to do physics.byebye.
I had a real good time @ 7:22 PM
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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
First Post
Hello Everybody. Mabel Is Back To Blogging. I Have To Write. I Feel So Weird Having To Keep Everything To Myself. Be Prepared People, Get A Drink, Because It's Gonna Be A Long Post Ahead Of You...
Life Has Been Interesting For The Past Few Weeks, Though I Do Admit That I Spent My Holiday Stoning Away. Highlights Of My Life Are As Usual, SBMY. [shall stop the caps thingy.Im lazy]
Seriously i think sbmy rocks. The camp was gr8 with Sonia , Justine and Evelyn by my side. I believe the icebreakers left people like justine and henry a bad impression.
Here's the conv on the first day and theday after, bio remedial day:
1st day:
Justine:Very SIANNNNN lei..
Me: confirm won't de..
J: i miss TV..
me:you da4 xiao3 jie3 la u
J: i miss my bed...my house..my pillow...EVERYTHING!
me:DOTS
J:NEXT CAMP I DUN WANT TO COME LIAO!
me:*speechless*
Last day...
J:awww...mabellllll
me:...*goosebumps*yeahs?
J:I MISS CAMPPPP!!!
Me:who say siannn?!
J:hehe...me..

see? EHIPASSIKO ROCKS. Another example

Hengyi n another guy...duno hu..
first day:
*by the window the two stood...
H: (in mandarin) ehs...xia4 yi4 ge4 camp ni3 hai2 yao4 lai2 ma1?
AG: bu4 zhi1 dao4 lei
H:Wo3 Bu4 yao4 lai2 liao3(his buyao even became one word:biao4)

Mass game day:
H:hen2 hao3 wan2 lei!
Me:......

and surprisingly...he joined SBMY...i was....traumatised...

So..EHIPASSIKO ROCKS.
and it was a success because SBMY did it.
the day i got home, around 11am, i washed up, smsed, fell asleep at 12pm and slept till 6am....
that was so nice.

[fast forward]16th june.
Well well. This day was...er...afternoon madness, i say? My temasek form was still with Mr chng. So i got the help of SOMEBODY to help me get it from his desk. Mr Chng:On my Laptop
i forgot the time...the phone rang..
jh:ehs....where's the form?
me:on the laptop
jh:not there lei
me:sure got la...chng say is there
jh:dun haf!
me:then u search the piles of paper on his desk
jh:which pile?
me:how i know? just flip through every pile
jh: SO MANY PILES!
me:please...find la..
[hears teachers talking @ the background]
me:who's that?
jh:*in a whisper* BETTY ONG
Me:HUH?! she not in aust meh?
jh:how i noe
[was already admiring him for using his hp in the staff room]
So ALAS! he found it.....YAY!!!
thirty minutes later...the phone rang again...
and this er...SELF PROCLAIMED SMART guy asked: how to write the address on the envelope ar?gosh...i nearly fainted.

24thjune-NJCIP test
it was..horrendous.60questions in 15minutes?! argh. patterns. foeget it.
4hours of eng n maths.
the maths. UNFAIR. tan, cos, because of the stupid modular system everything we were supposed to learn weren't learnt so minying, huiting and fellow nanhuarians left them blank. SO NICE. the english. I AM DEAD. all vocob.jialat liao. but the compo was ok. it saved my VIP application. VIP qn:

1. John Keats once said “Even a proverb is no proverb to you till your life has illustrated it”. Please tell us about an experience in your own life which illustrated a proverb, maxim or quote that has a special meaning to you.

NJ: "beauty is in the eye of the beholder", this proverb is commonly seen, Please tell us about an experience in your own life. Gr8! so i crapped about mothers. i hope it'll work.

White struggling with those test papers.....a few pals out there were having fun @ WWW.HUMPH!

school reopens. i am actually happy. but displeased by my new sit. just one seat beside my old seat, surrounding me..er....people im pretty tired of.
AND I AM NEVER GONNA BE LATE FOR SBMY EVER AGAIN! because mr hogan has promoted me to the sec 3 class on sundays. YES! so happy....but sadly i missed the games with SBMY last week...awww...nevermind...i love the amazing race but sadly my team kinda met a madperson whom, i can say, haven't bathed for weeks....and shihui got frightened off.
To this week...nothing much interesting actually. But out plan. out brilliant plan to torture somebody.wahaha.sadistic me.
today all i was doing was doing my book review and reading the josephine cox's book, the beachcomber. we had a nice quiz during geog(of course, got chocs) and it was unwise of the guys to choose all the low marked questions. i admit, miss ang is seriously helping the girls.
TJC people called. gonna take the test this sat. Moi mum asked the lady(or gentleman, i duno) what was the GAT about. she said General Knowledge. Let me die.
i've been pretty obssessed with novels lately, i think they are nice. I've always hated reading. Now im infatuated with it.
yes, i am mad.i actually like school. (except for my sit)
and i resolute to complete all my homework on time.
byebye. i need some sleep.
I had a real good time @ 7:55 PM
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